Missing you...

AS A MELANCHOLY DAY...

Because today was Mom's birthday the first one we did not have her with us...I thought of her all day...and took a fall color floral arrangement to put at her burial place...She would have been 96. I also visited and took fresh foliage to my husband's burial spot.  After that I drove out to Sandhills NWR a place she and I spent a lot of time together, viewing wildlife and plants...etc.  We had a favorite place in there and she was fond of this particular hill....so I went and mediated at her hill and I named it Mary's Hill! 

I had a Drumstick in her honor...that is one of those cone type ice creams you get in the dairy case at gas stations we always enjoyed that...Usually if I had to stop for Gas I'd come out with a drumstick for each of us. 

I sent my sisters photos of her new flowers and a video so they could sing along with me in a rendition of Happy Birthday.  So the next  hurdle is the anniversary of her death next month.  I got a late start it was cold and I really didnt want to come out of my flannel jammies...Im trying to NOT put on any heat I may light a fire in the fireplace tho, I am waiting till 7 pm and then it will warm my sitting area until bedtime which gets earlier every day or so it seems.

Again last night I did not sleep soundly...So I feel tired right now.  I was able to watch Svengoolie, it was The Island of Terror.  A British made film from 1966.  It was based on this scientist who was trying to discover a cure for cancer...but suddenly people started to turn up dead...without BONES in their body...they were like jelly! UT OH

So eventually they found the reason a Monster that has come from his tests! The creature looked similar to a turtle with a long snake type head...and it moved very slowly and could divide every 6 hrs...It was a sneaky thing it would glide up behind you and if it touched you BANG you died..so in the end when they tried of course to SHOOT them with guns...UT OH again, didn't work....they found  Radiation would kill it..SO they injected a herd of cattle with radiation...OH MY!!! The monsters ate the cattle and got radiation poisoning and died...It was sort of corny...but I enjoyed parts of it...

The sun was out but as the day wore on it became cloudy just added to my blue mood, and I hope I can bounce back tomorrow...I think it's time to light that fire!  Im listening to a folk trio on PBS great harmony and some good ballads. Mom and I used to enjoy the "singing" as we called it...she would hum along and I would tap my foot...good ole times. 

Another week ready to unravel, lets see how that goes...till then...