Tight Spaces

HAT IS THIS THING?

 This is the HELMET I had to wear when I took Brain Laser Radiation...They Clamp your head down to the table using this Mask Made especially for you...YOU can not move your head at all and in Fact you can Barely close your eyes it fits that tight...Very confining.

The Van

HAT?  $1289.00

Just when my van needed me most I was MIA!

I could have easily purchased a BUS computer from an ebay seller for like $250..Now I don't know if it would have been "programmed" or not BUT Some of those guys are repair guys And the Dodge delearship could do it BUT the  mechanic I used bought an original Mopar part and had it programmed there $700 total...He also installed the O2 sensors I've been driving around in my glove box cause I did not have the upper body Strength  to get those dang things out laying on my back on the ground so he did that...I did not ask about the condition of wiring harness that connects to the BUS...3 big pigtails... that but I did purchase an "ignition" wiring harness from ebay $40....As I suspect there is a short in it due to when I hit a bump the radio light goes off and my turn signals, wiggling the key makes it come back on. IF I recover enough to at some point to install that I will. Its not under the hood it can be done sitting in the van seat...so I'm hopeful.

My sister is getting a transport service to drive her to pick up the van...at 9 am...soooo this whole thing cost $$$$, $160 towing then the rental car we had for a week $400,,,and paying for rides to return the rental and another ride today may be $20...Lordy...AND I will probably be trading or selling the van for a smaller easier to manage vehicle due to my leg which will always have a 3 foot rod in it and probably will never function as before, I don't know... 

Today I am tired I barely slept I cant wait till the Steroids can be stopped I think they cause insomnia...

Annie is doing well she does seem a little depressed so I hope later today after sis returns we are planning to go outside so I can fill bird feeders and enjoy some out time so Annie will take a stroll with me.

So a day in the life of me.

Executive Decision

E MUST BE IN CONTROL...

I know my sis is gonna go Ballistic when I tell her I am not going to have that PET Scan the SC Oncology Acc. has me scheduled for...
I did my research and its a diagnostic tool, it has no bearing on my treatment...and its freaking dangerous in my book.  IT makes the tumors GLOW!! The tumors have been  MRI'd they have been Sized...and located, 

It is suggested to have 8-12 weeks after radiation has been done  IM only 4 weeks Status Post the radiation...

That test fills your body with Nuclear Radiation!! I already have radiation burns in  my mouth throat and the lower right side of jaw...VERY raw and extremely painful..

AND The determination of what drugs to give me in Chemo is made by my Biopsy  and Blood work, not this test SO why subject myself to more injury? I have Non Small Cell Squamish Carcinoma metastatic stage 4 that has already been determined the best treatment is immunotherapy...and it is not exactly curable as the DR told me it would be a life long treatment...But I plan to call it in Dec when I go for my MRI recheck to see if anything shrunk!!

I would  be radioactive for 18 hrs after that scan....SO IM not gonna do it period not at this time!! It is my life and I need no permissions..

Hmmm?

ILL I BE ABLE TO DIY?

My You tube is mostly about my DIY projects  and most are either Homestead chores or Van repairs...I can not currently do the van repair which totally sucks because its a simple fix switch out the BUS or Computer 3 screws!! BUT it was dead in the intersection so we got a tow etc..My tag line on my channel is Another $80 Saved!

But Annie was in desperate need of grooming...so I called Pet Sense

and to shed comb her bath her and do nails $75!!

So today I had my sis set up a table in front of the wicker chair on the screen porch and put Annie up there for me...I got an early start before my leg swells up and I have to Elevate it for hours which means I can do nothing, So I did the shed combing, trimmed her nails and trimmed the long hair on her belly and used a rinse less shampoo to rub thru her coat good as any bath...well pretty much..

So with tax Im Sure its $80 saved...Ka-ching!!

Flossie July 4, 2009 - Sept 6, 2022

ITH A SAD HEART...

Flossie was laid to rest yesterday right by Casey in my Pet Cemetery....She is now at Peace..My lovely companion

Floss

HY NOW?

Well its not enough that I have Stage 4 Cancer my hair fell out after 20 radiation treatments and it has caused other health issues,, that I have a huge hole in my leg and now a 3 ft rod with 3 screws in it...and if I try too stay up doing things...which I can do I can prepare most of my meals but we are taking turns doing meals my sis and I and trying to navigate the medical system,,,Home Nurses calling all odd hours...Physical therapists who don't show up etc...MY poor Floss seems to be on her last leg. Literally she cant walk and even with help she is unable to stand...

We got her in that little compact car Somehow my sis managed and we did a walk in visit to the Vet...IT took 3 hrs total to get her in and out...He x-rayed the hips he said its more arthritis than ACL..

He gave her a steroid injection  and she starts Prednisone tomorrow...But she has not offered to try to stand...or walk...she is incontinent

we have a diaper on her but I don't want her living that way so In the next couple of Days I have a very tough decision...to make...

How can someone's life completely implode in just a few weeks??

I just want a change for the better in some small way!!

AND Annie is showing signs of diabetes, I think my sis is over feeding She had none of these symptoms prior to now...

Why me why now? There is a limit to what one woman can bear.

She was 14 On July 4th...

 

Sept

HEN TO GET BUSY

Well the van got towed it is a holiday weekend so I don't expect anything this week but just getting it to the garage is a big deal...Ive been trying to do more of my own food prep and I made dinner for us both Peppers n Rice.. I need to relearn new ways of moving around in my home so if I do beat this I can resume some normal...I wish be to be able to do that..
I have my MRI recheck Dec 3 So that should tell me if Its growing or retreating!! If its growing I may move to CO so I can do Hospice or they have assisted end of life there...It just depends

Right now I feel pretty good Im able to walk much better using a walker of course and I hope in time to graduate to a rolliator which is more sporty and has a storage pouch for carrying things I had ordered it before I found out about the cancer.

I spent some time on my screen porch yesterday watching birds on the feeders That was nice and I could see most of my flowers Zinnia, Lantana, and Phlox and some peppers are coming on the Red Bell that was attacked by deer in the spring...So maybe I will get one in the end.

Sept I will be 69 in 27 days.

UGHHH

HEN IT RAINS IT POURS..

So on the way home at my last radiation treatment we were 10 away and my van stalled at a light and would not restart..so we had to get a tow home we had done curbside pickup at Walmart Had our groceries in there and my walker so thank goodness a nice tow driver pushed us off the raod then towed us home...so now im dealing with getting it towed to a garage that I trust...and it was supposed to get towed yesterday...BUT that tow guy didnt show up I barely slept last night,

So I called this mornimg and he has shown up I had to put the van in My sons driveway next door my drive way was too narrow for the other truck to make it I saw the red truck arrive so HOPE fully

BUT its  a Holiday weekend so NO clue when it will be done...meanwhile we have a rental which is expensive..

Life continues to HACK me!

Karma seems hell bent.

Ongoing Thoughts

ELL...

Ive Had 2 days off at home after completing my brain Radiation and have 2 more hip radiation treatments left so 2 more 3 hr commutes over round trip and I will be glad that Part is over first recheck in Oct of the leg and 3 months for MRI.

My Sister was able to beef up the dog ramp so its now strong enough for me to use...so getting in and out if I recover can happen..

Im not sure how the chemo will affect me that starts after Labor day.

This whole thing has been a shock to me its kind of Im having an out of body experience to be honest...but I will chronicle as best i can JIC I do survive,

week 3 Post release

EDNESDAY

Today is my first Oncology consult I will be doing Chemo in my own town no 3 hr daily ride to Lexington Life will be better I can have more down time    the Team in Lex is coordinating the treatment based on lab reports of bio markers so it could be IV, Pill and/or Immunotherapy. I have to make 5 more trips there this week and 2 days next week   then begin chemo Sept 6,

My sis is taking amazing care of me I would probably have passed if not for her help,

I did have a nightmare of my X last night I plan to smudge my house of any bad omens,

At this point this is just documenting my journey into the unknown.

Life will be better or not but trying this one shot is the only choice I have..I dont know beyond.

On Going

ELL...

Yesterday was long day radiation at 4 and they took me back late,,,We finally got home @ 6 pm we got Chinese take out and I was asleep before 8 pm exhausted...I have my first surgical post opt today and then followed by another radiation txt which is 40 mins on the table..

I will begin Chemo in my own town Sept 6..my life is all about this disease now which is what I had never wanted but am left no choice..

Simple things bring me hope..

Walking Dead?

HAT HAPPENS NOW?

So guess who has stage 4 Metz non small cell Squamish carcinoma cancer?

I do!  found out 12 days ago after i had a seizure in my home on was Saturday the 8th and called 911 when I finally came around and  transported to my local hospital they did a cat scan and told me I had brain cancer and swelling.  They  transferred me to Lexington Med Center in Columbia. SC and I was admitted to  neurology surgical floor....and an MRI slowed I have Lung CA that has metz to Brain. Lymph. and my right femur...so all along my leg has a tumor that ate the bone away and this is why I cant walk...

So they put in a 24" long rod with 3 big screws so I can now walk a little.  I began Radiation  to my brain and hip 10 treatments did 5 already after 9 days I asked to be released my sis is here helping me and driving me to the remaining appts.  Then the plan is chemo in my town a...No idea how I will progress as its a crap shoot..

Totally did not see this coming...

This week...

HAT THE HELL?

Metaverse...is creating a schizophrenics' reality and doing it to kids and anyone who is stupid enough to play those games...IT is def a hazard to mental health.  Its LSD. Ever wake up from a really bad dream that has lasting effects...I can see many lawsuits on the way...and many more unstable individuals being preyed upon by a huge untethered corporation.  It should never have been created. 

People are subjected to sexual advances, violent behavior and anti social behavior...ANY Parent who buys this one better watch out. 

Im having such a hard time walking. My shoulders, arms, and hands are sore and achy from using them to take the weight off my hip which hurts with each step I take. I have been using a sort of homemade walker...the walking cane was not working for me, and I nearly fell a couple of times... I ordered one of those rolling things like my mom had, I will be able to roll myself some of the time and save wear and tear on my upper body.  Its still 2 weeks till my appointment with the orthro. I was happy it was shipped with UPS...not Fed Ex...its supposed to be here in 8 days I hope it arrives sooner..

Alex Jones guilty of lying and saying Sandy Hook was a prank and not real...he was ordered to pay $4.1 million, and there will be more punitive damages. Kansas said NO to outlawing abortion, and the DOJ is pushing forward with investigations about Jan 6.  I think we may start to see some justice for some of this nutty crap we have had to endure.  

My son hit a deer...his car is messed up! 

Educators

AY BACK IN MIDDLE SCHOOL 

Or Jr High as we called it...I had a science teacher named Mr Melton.  He was an older man with snow white hair and his hands shook and he seemed to always be anxious.  He missed a lot of classes and so we had a lot of subs.  This only added to the problem of him not getting the respect he needed.   I had very little interaction in school with students or teachers.  I was a quiet student who rarely asked questions.  I was a good enough student until I got to high school. 

Mr Melton's classroom was on the 3rd floor or the top floor of the building...and it had big huge windows that we kept open as I think I have mentioned we did not have air conditioning...

One day when he could not get control of the class he walked to the  window and sat on the ledge with the legs dangling outside and threatened to jump... One of the older boys ran and got a teacher in
the next room, he went to Mr Melton and was holding his hand while talking to him and another teacher told us to exit the room.  

Poor Mr. Melton he had  a mental breakdown right there in class...we never saw  him again...and Ted Cruz would have teachers toting guns and facing down domestic terrorists.... can you imagine Mr Melton being that man?  He probably would have opened fire on  us all...

Teachers have a hard job!

Crusty old Bread....

HEN YOU'RE RIGHT,,,

The young man Im supporting for SC Governor in Nov has a refreshing nature about him....he is liberal and most likely progressive...Joe Cunningham he is from Charleston but was born in KY.  In his latest ad he said "We are being ruled by "geriatric oligarchs".  He wants term limits and age limits also.  I totally agree.   He said he is not supporting Biden for President because he is too old...and he is right.  He mentioned more of the flaky old men in Washington also...Jim Clyburn is a good man but he is OLD he is 80. As I stated I will vote for a younger Democrat in the primary.  Hope it's going to be Gavin Newsome... he is 57..already in his prime. 

He has not given an age in his proposal, but to me 50 is a good round number.  I would say I was my sharpest at 50 but since the President has to be 35 to run, that leaves a slim window.   He said he is saying what we all are thinking but no one has the courage to say, the Truth.
And he is kinda cute too!

Healthcare in America

HAT THE HECK?

I have an appt for the 24th of Aug to see an ortho on my hip/leg issue I told the girl I may be dead by then,,,She said I could go to the ER if its gets really bad,,,trust me it's really bad.   There is ONE Ortho in my town...with 4 doctors...

IM taking the max on the otc meds...just to be able to drag my leg aound and walk and it's not really walking--its fake walking.  Im using my folding step stool as a walker, it works quite nicely...but its heavy.  My leg folds up and wont support the weight so I had to move away from using the cane it was too dangerous...

I am not able to use that outside so Im not going outside for now.  It would sink in the sand we have here...

I have come to the conclusion its a muscle tear and possible ligament too..This has been a horrible exerience,,,I dont know how my mom ever did it she had 2 hip replaces...and was on a walker for about 8 yrs She was SOOOO strong...

I running out of everything my son picked up a few items for me I need to learn how to use the Order online pick up on store but his schedule is so all over the place I  dont  know when to schedule a pickup...and I cant drive in my current situation...I cant make my leg lift so going back n forth gas to break not happening!

Sucks to be me right now.

Hooked a Big Fishy Thing...

HAT IS THE CATCH?

So before anyone goes slapping the atta' boy back of Joe Manchin lets explore what made  him change his mind on the Climate bill.  After some talks with Chuck Shumer he suddenly had a change of heart....and he even goes as far as to call the bill the "Inflation Reduction Bill" Like we really care about that...

See Manchin takes more money from the fossil fuel industry than any other Senator, he is bought and paid for by big Pollution.  So the catch 20 was that Manchin demanded more public lands be opened up to oil and gas explorations which Biden promised a NO on but did its in this bill...Also it opens up exploration for precious metals used in the manufacture of batteries, and even some yet to be discovered minerals...IF that sounds like a dig till die plan it sort of is..

SO THANKS to the JOE'S we get the wool pulled over over our eyes...and to them its business as usual.  Some parts of the bill may help some areas like Healthcare costs drug costs and such and yet the loss to the fossil Fuel is a biggie to me. 

And the GOP is too busy attacking the "Tax Hike" they dont bother to point out its Capital Gains Taxes, certainly wont affect the 99% of the Americans...who probably have NO capital Gains to report..its for the wealthier people who invest...in real estate stocks and such..

yet Mitch McConnell acted as if it was gonna cause the trailer park Trumpsters to go broke..

Speaking of which now Fox is cutting ties with Trump and they are throwing their weight behind DeSantis, FL Governor so we know by the company he keeps he can't be trusted...

And the GOP threw the Veterans under the bus on Health Care for vets affected by burn pits??? Holy Hell.

I hear the Gov of CA may oppose Biden in the 2024...Id go for him in the Primary for sure!

Be There Jan 6....it's gonna be wild

HEN YOU NAME the time and place for something to happen, it's part of the conspiracy...
They have shown that Trump intended to go to the Capitol with his lynch mob in tow...So what speech did he intend to give at the  steps of the Capitol?  More angry rhetoric.  HE is guilty, it is rubbing the ass of the GOP that got us where we are, so I say it's time to bite that ASS...no more appeasing the Right, if they riot when charges are filed etc, that's why we have the National. Guard.  He showed intent, "I'm going with you,,," he said that.  HE also said, "Lets go take back our Country," that to me is a battle cry...pure n simple...That shows intention.  The man is a NUT pure n simple.  

They prosecute people who says such things on the internet let alone in front of an angry mob...now he is threatening all of US, he is basically saying "they" that means you and me...stole the election...no we didn't but he wants his followers to to something about it, that is what terrorism is.   Our leaders have to work within the system we have set up.  We have already ironed out the type nation we want we had a War of Independence, and a Civil War this is the type Nation we want...if  he wants an Authoritarian Society he should move to another country...like Russia!!

Liz summed up...

HAT WE ALL ARE THINKING...

And that is Never Again with DT in Office, I don't think he should be a free man, he is Benedict Arnold reborn...and he should be behind bars, not just for a couple years but for Life! And Anyone caught flying his flag should be arrested for supporting a coup.  The Nazi flag was out lawed in Germany it stands for hate and violence, so does Trump's flag and the Confederate Flag. Freedom does not come with a hate your neighbor to death card...it's ok to dislike each other but to the point of forcing your will on everyone?? ONE MAN...Heck no. 

Im still waiting for that list of  accomplishments mentioned by the Republican witnesses, one mentioned China, in the end that HURT us, and may possibly be the cause of this inflation and lets just go ahead and call it a recession.  We are feeling the results of DT's economy where only the WEALTHY are $$$soaring and the rest of us bottom feeders are flopping around like fish out of water.

I read that the the main Trump supporter is middle class white American's....well in that case soon enough they won't exist.

Housing costs affect soooo many of the components that make up the economy, such as Banking, and mortgaging lending, Lawyers who do sales contracts, closings, and deeds.  Real Estate brokers, developers, constructions contractors, landscapers, and then on up the chain to the building suppliers, hardware manufactures, and right back to logging in the woods!  Housing costs have risen 17.5% since 2020....THIS IS not surprising, the Tariffs went into effect in Oct 19, 2019...A direct connection is found.  

Canadian Lumber prices were to go up by 18% it was Joe Biden's Administration that did that in a effort to put US Lumber mills back to work...and that is helping that industry...but now with costs being passed UP the chain it hardly matters, they are relooking at the Canadian tax now...it was 8.99%. 

With this one sector of the economy being hit so heavily people are going to loose homes as interest rates rise, new home construction will slow considerably which will affect infrastructure and utilities expansion.  

Biden has covid and this is not good news for him or his ratings, if he can't govern due to health concerns more people jump ship.  I was never a Biden fan BUT I voted for him in the election of course...I don't know who could walk out of the Ashes and take the reins. I have not been very impressed with Harris, she brings up all sorts of what we need to change but i don't see her offering solutions.  She was supposed to be heading the troubles at our borders and that has not happened...meaning NO good Immigration reform has been put out there.

OAC has solutions but can she carry the party??? And she shows no signs of wanting to run...

Too bad Liz Cheney is a Republican  I think I would vote for her!

I despised her Father, and maybe she is cut from the same cloth...but I do think with someone like her we could find common ground to stand on, maybe?

..PS...

ALGREENS 

Drug store employee has refused to sell condoms to a married couple,  citing their religious belief system as a reason for this refusal...so we've been thru this before, when the bakery refused to bake a cake for a gay couple...

Now Justice Thomas has opened the door for privacy issues and Im pretty sure a suit will happen and it will come before the supreme court...and the Neo-Cons who currently sit on the Black Robed Throne, will rule in favor the religious zealots who wish to control everyone's sexuality. 

See the thing is I have no religious belief system...SO I guess that means I can refuse to sell a Cross, a Rosary, or Candle with Jesus on it, or  A BIBLE, so there is that...

I can refuse to sell Yamaka's  or Christmas Trees, or Baby Jesus, or a Menorah, or ANY other religious or anti religious artifact that is not in alignment with my belief!

SC HOUSE has already passed a bill stating that a Person can not be sued for refusing service if its against their religious belief...that includes doctors, nurses, and the whole nine...

Another Freedom could fall to the GOP, the party that is taking away your personal rights! 

If the Shoe Fits...

ELL ITS OFFICIAL ...

I qualify for old fart status now.   Yesterday my son did his shopping he offered for me to go along I was in so much pain I could not get off the couch...just a terrible day and it was storming outside.  

But I was out of everything...I debated on doing the Food Lion shop assist thing but I have no clue how much they charge for their service so when I got up  this morning I felt I could actually drive and go do it myself....

I went to IGA I can't do Walmart its just too much finding parking close to the door would be nice, that is never gonna happen...so anyways they have one of those riding shopping carts at IGA so I used it... much harder than it looks and nothing is within reach...Getting on and off the thing wore my leg out...as I had to bend my leg to get on it, IT was still exhausting to my leg.  I also got a dose of reality on how people who have no mobility issue treat people who do have one...ASSES, they cut you off then crowd around the shelves so they can get at what you want and then they ignore you like you don't exist.

The young man who bagged everything offered to bring it to the car so I said YES, he was super nice.  I owe him a couple of bucks I HAD no cash and felt like a complete fool. 

I had to call my son to bring my purchases inside, so happy he was able to do that for...no way I could have done it in my current state which is way worse than this whole thing has been since the beginning. 

Welcome to old age!

PAIN....

HICH WAY...

Mentally Im better today but physically Im the same...I guess I have to bite the big bullet and go see an orthopedic for my hip/leg problem.  The chiropractor did not help.  He is not motivated to help me resolve my problem, the first visit I was hopeful the second visit nothing changed...and he just kept wanting me to come back and he was doing the same thing...So Anyways I felt that I want a different opinion on exactly what is Going on with my hip and leg. 

There is soooo many things that can go wrong...and I explained to him how the right side of my pelvis is titled back meaning my femoral head is too far forward...He said it's the SI joint which is partly to blame...but if that is not fixing the problem, then I want a diagnosis that can point me in the right direction...It could just be physical therapy...or it could be more than that.  So I want xrays and someone who is competent to read them...I think the person I was going to has been out of school too long, and he is not seriously trying to help me...and possibly the problem is out of his scope of ability. 

So I hope the guy who set my arms and did Mom's hip issues is still practicing...if so I want to see him.  I will try to call tomorrow and see what happens.  I do think the inflammation is gone, or nearly gone....but unable to walk without using a cane, and I can't raise my leg up...the pain is still happening, and it is pinching my femoral nerve...or irritating it. 

I have watched so many youtube videos showing various stretches to strengthen every muscle in that area...each one  irritated me into more pain..so I don't know which ones I should be doing and which ones I should not be doing! 

A case of the BLAHs

HAT DAY IS IT?

Seriously that is what I ask myself each morning when I wake up...I try to orient to time.  I think I have lost my zest for caring right now...if the sun shines it's too hot to go outside, if it doesn't shine it's too humid.  Gas is too high to for van rides, and my hip hurts too much to enjoy being cramped up in the van...the more I move the less stiff I get, but I am no shark I cant keep moving...so I ask again. have I lost my zest? 

So to make the day go faster I spend a lot of time just mindless reading online, there is only a couple of bloggers I still read and I just zoom to the end skipping over most of it, and the same with the Youtuber's I was following most I have unsubscribed to...for one reason or another.  I was enjoying this one cross country bike trip these senior ladies were doing then they had some bad roadside experiences so they called it quits on that, and to be honest the music they play is like I'm in a nightclub...its horrible.  I really wanted to say, "do you really have to play any music?"  I'd rather hear the sound of the crunch of the gravel on the ground or the birds as they move along...But instead we get this corny music...so much so it's not fun.  The last one actually had this salsa vibe and I just hit the end button.  

I read a lot of political baloney and that only gets me angry.  Everyone is going thru something I totally get it, one girl who I found via a rare bird alert ended up with cancer...I felt she was foolish to even fight it...honestly.  There is  no cure, the cure kills most in a 5 yr timeframe which is about how long you can survive without treatment...Now she has completely destroyed her quality of life and it really blows for her.  I feel horrible for her.  

My son wanted to go unload the pile of crap we have on the trailer from the fallen tree.  I just didn't feel up to fighting the heat...I don't have to do any of the work, he said Just ride with me, he is not covered on my insurance to drive to the van...So I would drive and he would unload but it's Saturday....THE worst day in the world to even try to get up to the yard debris bins...So I said no lets go on Tuesday...I did not want to go. 

I think I have a case of the  BLAHS!

Just Say he Lied and We will handle it from there...

ATCHED J6
Only this time there is evidence

...and I see no reason to NOT charge Trump with crimes against the USA...we all agree he tried to bogusly steal an election, that should be more than enough to charge him and the rest is just more years added on to his sentence!!  Bringing People INTO OUR HOUSE who conspired with lies and other means to help him...people WHO had no business there...giving him advice on how to remain in power when he had already LOST the election...this goes beyond that really...it is a hostile take over conspiracy!!

Sidney Powell a lunatic, Rudy Giuliani lunatic #2, Some guy from Overstock.com...WTF? And yet the White House Counsel only found out by mistake about this Secret Meeting??? That is not how we do things here.   And that fake freaking  Pillow guy should be run out of this country! I'd love to yank that cross off his hypocrite neck...Exile the lot of them I say. 

The word Patriot has been made into a nasty image by the people who follow this vile man.  There are real patriots in my family lineage, they fought for freedom against tyranny in the American Revolution, later  that Constitution became the document we live by.  To have some halfwhit like Trump shit on that to me is LIKE he has NO RIGHT to do so!  I would like to see him dealt with the old fashioned way...run out of the nation on a rail, tarred and feathered, and exiled. The Bloodroot of my family go back 100 yrs blood was spilled, generations of them are buried under this soil. 

And he has been witness tampering...Trump has always done business this way, he gets his way by getting others to break the law for him...in exchange for what, is the question this time...Powell was gonna be given a Special Council appointment, and what was Ruddy getting??  Flynn a White Supremacists, and then they all want pardons??? They had written a document to have voting machines seized by the military...and then THEY would appoint Powell to "oversee" the examining of such machines...Our voting machines are not hooked up to the internet....they are a very simple Tabulation machine, it can't be tampered with from some other country...and we each get a paper copy of our results, which we must review before we put that into another ballot box! IF anything goes wrong it's a backup system already in place....IF any thing was awry then the NEWs from the States would have been immediate...if there had been anything going wrong people would HAVE said SO.  The States would have blown the whistle on any voter fraud...not the other way around!! 

The sooner he is Legally and Permanently dealt with the better in my book. HIS BS rallies spew hatred to incite Domestic Terrorism against people like me, people who do not agree with him. And more than half the population of this country do NOT agree with him.

The man is pathological.  He is  speaking to the most vile of our population as we can see.  HE talks about US like we  are the enemy and yet he wants to preside over us all???  

I saw Screw Him!! 

Meanwhile...

ILLING BUT NOT ABLE...

I put my nature ramble blog on hold for now cause I am not out and about and uninspired to do a blog that I have not experienced in real time....it's the relating of an experience via photos and bearing witness to what I saw that is the theme of that blog.  I did one post that was all photos captured a year ago and tried to recap that memory but it lacked so much I got one comment...ONE, and I highlighted all the Earthquakes we have been having, which is sort of about Nature...or at least our unstable natural world. 

If no one is interacting it's no fun.  I thought of trying to do one of the meme group things...there is a lot of them out there...having to do with art, cooking, gardening, sky watch, and more.  But I have done that before and it never leaves me feeling original or satisfied with the result.  It felt like an assignment...I do enjoy some challenges but the older I get the less I enjoy that. 

Writtin's is and can be about anything...it comes from my opinions of what's going on in the world big n small...ALL happening at once in my mind, outside my mind, anyplace anywhere...not necessarily part of my journey but stuff I pondered or hear, it's hearsay and I have no interactions.  Its more like a Diary. 

Im geared up to listen to the J6 hearings today at 1 pm...I wanted to go out and do some clean up of the tree that fell, my son sawed it up but lots of fine detailing needs to be done, but today my leg is not happy at all.  Not sure if the 2 Cyprus trees that were mangled by the falling tree will survive...we shall see.  

I cant really do much due to my hip/leg troubles, still a huge issue in my life. Im icing as I type. The thigh and hip joint continue to give me severe pain when I walk or even when I don't walk! It just hurts all the time. 

I can't just stop writing as it has been such a huge part of my life since I put the #2 lead to use back when I was 3 or 4...my mom taught me to draw a rat, and a cat, and she showed me how to write RAT and CAT so I wrote it over and over again on every piece of paper I could find.  Self expression should never be smothered. 

Having said that...what about the Evil aspects of self expression? I say this with a ? mark because I am of the mind that we have outlined pretty well what is and what is not acceptable behavior in our society. That continues to change every day. People are SHOT DOWN daily, no hourly in this country so much so that NOW the only ones that matter is when it's more than one person killed....it's insane!    

Like the kid who murdered the people in the parade, he was  a sadistic individual and he basically said he wanted to do what he did, he drew pictures of it, he performed skits in his rap songs that clearly showed violence and mayhem, yet no one raised a red flag?

We are all good until we're not...then the shit hits the fan. 

Seems as a race we are more into "clean up on isle 9" than into "no you can't do that". I told my son he was ignorant.  He said, "so add that to the list of things you have called me." 

So I explained, "to me ignorance is when you already know the consequence of your action but you go ahead and do it anyway." He was doing 45 in a 30 and a hospital zone, which is a KNOWN speed trap in this town...I said, "I know this from experience." So he slowed down. Why bring attention to your bad deeds?  Look at me Im speeding yet I know it's risky behavior. This I don't get.  We only have to testify in court.  Yet when I ask a question straight up..."did you pay  your bill on time?" I dont get the truth...why is that.  He can deal with a fine for speeding but not own up to paying a bill late, because I will what?  frown on that? We own some unworthy deeds yet not others? 

I really will never understand people.  

Steve Bannon and Trump..lol

What a JOKE they both are do they have any clue how clearly we thru the haze? Well not all of us, but MOST of us.  Some are always in a fog of disillusion unfortunately.  So Bannon is about to be tried for contempt of Congress, and his trial is coming.  So Trump never had executive privilege's over him because he was not one of his lackies at the time, wrote this ridiculous letter and waived his EP...the J6 committee said Big Deal...and Judge presiding over the trial of his contempt said Hogwash and it goes forward...LOL I was so thrilled to see these gaslighting idiots brought to a standstill.

Finally a...

IN WIN...NO RANT POST

I finally realized there is no way Im gonna be able to clip my dog anytime soon outside its too humid, at 79% Its so miserable, the weather man has a chart on his nightly newscast and its a Graph that measures the humidity not in % but in Adjectives...today we are just under the borderline Oppressive, tomorrow the humidity will drop down some but only to the Muggy range... 

WIS TV Image

So anyways no way I could try to do anything to the dogs but it became desperate.  Since I've been out of commission with my hip injury...I have neglected my pets grooming, I can't stoop down with this pain and I cant pick them up with only one good leg they each weight about 50-55 lbs..and they are a wiggly 50 lbs..

But today I took 2  pain pills, (Aleve 440mg) and brought all my tools inside, and put down a blanket and sat on my ottoman and was able to stretch out my afflicted leg in a way that it didn't hurt.  Annie only needed a nail trim I can't brush her inside the hair would go everywhere but she's an easy comb...next time Im out and about dealing with my plants I will comb her hair with a shed comb...it takes only seconds to run the comb thru her hair. 

Floss on the other hand is a nightmare....and since she doesn't squat well anymore, she gets this stinky mat of hair at the rear end...I always keep it clipped short so I can easily wash her off with just a cloth and some no rinse shampoo...BUT the smell was not good.  I tried using the cloth to wash it down,  it would work for a while but then with the humidity, the area never dried so it became a must do situation.  

SO happy I was able to clip that hair off and I just went ahead and shaved her rear from under the tail all the way down...So it will be a while before any hair gets back in the way. I shaved  down her legs & inside, and the backs of them too.. cut the long stands off her tail...and then gave her a good warm wet cloth and no rinse shampoo foam cleaning, she smells delightful now.  I also clipped her belly, her feet, her ears, and some of her chest hair, I hope that will be good enough till I can do better...I clipped both their nails...and gave them a Milkbone treat. 

She can't stand up for me to clip her since she has bad rear legs so I have to do it with her laying down flat. 

I finally did get to harvest some veggies from my garden pots...I got 2 zukes and 2 cukes! Delicious and the Eggplant is coming along...HOPE I can keep the critters away...so far so good on those *knock on wood* but the tomato is a loss, the peppers, a loss, the green beans now destroyed...it's deer and squirrel. I am considering not feeding birds for a couple of years maybe only suet in an effort to shut down the food supply to the squirrels and maybe they will leave!

The Right Wing Nuts Strike Again!

HAT A MESS!

So the 4th of July turned deadly in the USA...its a symptom of the health of this Nation and we are all sick puppies.  The division between ideology of individuals is getting so deep I don't think it's repairable...at this point.  I spend about 10 minutes on Facebook scrolling just to read the messages, heck I join in and say my part.  I know.  Trust me I know...but when I see an unjust thing I try to right it...like this statement by a commenter, "The person occupying the White House is the reason gas is so high." 

So I  write..."actually gas is high in Canada, in Europe, and Australia, and basically all over the world, and Joe Biden doesn't make that decision, he actually is trying to help by pausing the fed gas tax." 

Am I wrong to try and speak the truth?

....even tho I know it is futile to try to  talk sense of the people on the Right.  As long as they have FOX whispering in their ear, what good would it do?  They got God and Fox.  If that is not an oxymoron then I don't know what is!

They don't care about the environment, they don't care about gun laws, they don't care about animal rights, they don't care about Religious Oppression or believe in Separating Church and State, they care little about higher learning, and they care more about telling me how to manage my body than taking care of their own.  They want to dictate who I have sex with, then they want to dictate how I handle that relationship, can I marry that person or not, can I keep, or not, a fertilized egg inside me, can I use contraceptives if I want to, and which ones I will use...this IS about them controlling US...They want to decide my boyfriend, the type sex I have, it would not surprise me if they force women to undergo clitoridectomy to be sure women can not enjoy the act of copulation.

 I bet if we outlawed SMOKING they would PITCH a freaking fit! It's MY BODY I can do what I want, my lungs, my money being spent, my life....you can't control it???? What does their book have to say?   What does the Bible say about smoking?  Since smoking is an addiction, it certainly enslaves the smoker. The Bible states: "Whoever perpetrates a sin is a slave of that sin"  the underlying meaning is and will not inherit the kingdom of God. 

So  its in there.  As you know I don't care what is or is not in the Bible....but this is THEIR book of Morality.  The 10 commandments...they shalt not kill....

And then there is the mentally deranged who get no health care in this country because it's more important to sell guns than help individuals who are in need.  The thing is as I have pointed out mental health care in this country is dished out for the ones who can afford it or if its covered on insurance.  I recall the few times I had insurance policies, a separate rider had to be taken out for Mental Health...it was NOT covered. It takes one hour to buy a gun, try getting mental health in one hour!  Its cheaper to buy a gun!

The guy, 21 yo Robert Crimo, who killed people in the 4th of July Parade, Yesterday, according to the Deputy Police Chief news briefing he had been planning this for a weeks, he brought a ladder so he could get on the roof, (intent) he purchased the gun himself legally a while back...he tried to conceal his appearance, (intent) he borrowed his mothers car (intent)....he had a second rifle in that car,(intent) and other weapons were recovered from a home he was living in,  also purchased by him.  He had been posting violent Rap performances on line for over a year...he has been posting on a Forum Board called...Discord.  He had many Youtube videos of his raps and they were violent and suggestive of him performing violent acts against society...(intent) and using  Political Nihilism:  the position holding no political goals whatsoever, except for the complete destruction of all existing political institutions—along with the principles, values, and social institutions that uphold them. (Motive) 

When I read the live chat replay under the police briefing, some commenters said things like: This is a ploy to get people's  guns; they are saying things like "high powered rifle" it's a way of forcing gun control on everyone." 

YES Let us Please take the guns out of the hands of these deranged people!!  And then lets go back and take them out of the hands of the soon to be deranged people!! 

This is what we are UP against people!

Biased Court...

HAT NOW?

The Supreme Court of the USA is biased and they have an agenda.  They were supposed to be in recess...but they are going to hear one more case...Berger vs North Carolina. 

I tried to read the whole case  history but it was so full of repetitive BS

I stopped.  What I got out of it is very scary...this is a law suit where in 2018 the NAACP sued the state for creating a law that says voters have to present a valid photo ID.  It ended up in 4th District Fed Court which ruled that Legislators can NOT be authorized to represent the challenge to the state law that only a fed court has that authority... and it went back n forth till now it's on the docket of the Supreme court.  This is completely scary because the main idea now after many rulings is that the Legislator entitled to participate in the civil proceedings, in other words can they act as the LAW here...

Gorsuch wrote the Reversed opinion...

 Through the General Assembly, the people of North Carolina have authorized the leaders of their legislature to defend duly enacted state statutes against constitutional challenge. Ordinarily, a federal court must respect that kind of sovereign choice, not assemble presumptions against it. Having satisfied the terms of Federal Rule of Civil Procedure 24(a)(2), North Carolina’s legislative leaders are entitled to intervene in this litigation. The judgment of the Court of Appeals for the Fourth Circuit is Reversed.

This means that illegal voting rules can be put into place, and the State Legislature would decide if it's constitutional or not!! Stand back for more States to do such BS and the Federal court WON'T hear any suit...and we all can kinda see where the vote will land!!

Justice Sotomayor dissented:

In short, the Court’s conclusion that state respondents inadequately represented petitioners’ interests is a fiction that the record does not support. In addition, the Court’s armchair hypothesizing improperly displaces the District Court’s firsthand experience in managing this litigation. * * * States are entitled to structure themselves as they wish and to decide who should represent their interests in federal litigation. State law may not, however, override the Federal Rules of Civil Procedure by requiring federal courts to allow intervention by multiple state representatives who all seek to represent the same state interest that an existing state party is already capably defending. Because the Court concludes otherwise, I respectfully dissent.

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HEN I WAS IN HIGH SCHOOL...

First off I graduated when I was 16...I needed one English credit I took summer school between the 10th and 11th and I was out of there...so my friends and I cut the cord at Graduation.  I went to work at a horse boarding place then later at the racetrack and the rest is history...as I moved to NY and left all my friends and family behind...

I was one in a trio of friends in highschool...I won't name any names here except one, but I want to share this story.  We had a driver's ed teacher who came from California and he was in his late 20's.  All the girls were ga ga goo goo over him he had long hair drove a Corvette, and had a motor cycle, and we all knew he smoked weed and he was the coolest dude around since  he was NOT from here....this was 1969...

Me and my friends were all in families who struggled with Poverty...and we each had siblings to deal with and working parents, and we  had very little in the way of what we could offer to the world.  So there was this place everyone hung out and sometimes if one of us could get our hands on the family car we would drive to the Burger Family Inn and hang out.  We never had money for burgers...we just stood around in the parking lot with other lost soul kids and we pretended to know what the hell we were doing in life.  

WE all had plans....I intended to get hired at the racetrack asa I graduated...and I did that....One of the friends had intentions to go to Art College in Georgia...and the other wanted to go to nursing school.  We would pass little notes to each other in the hallway at school ... "Meet me after school in the bus line"....

We  all took drivers ed, and we learned to drive under the tutelage of Bill the guy from CA who was so laid back, made us all his friends! He didn't speak to us with authority, he spoke to us like he was one of the guys...and we swooned over him...his dreamy west coast accent, his long hair, this weed smoking law breaking teacher,  at the Burger Family Inn....he was MR cool on our campus...

Then things began to change...one of my friends began to meet Bill at the BFI (burger family inn) and they would leave in his little yellow corvette and she would not show back up till time for us to head home and a few times she didn't show in time and we left her...NO cell phones in those days...we would tell someone else who was there "tell her we waited as long as we could."...

Then next day in school we would be like...WTH, happened to you?  "I will tell you later..." she would repsond...

So as it turned out Driver's Ed Bill was banging my friend he took her to his apartment and she was 16 and he was 26 or something like that...and the next thing you know we are all on restrictions for coming home late, but I was never put on restriction as my mom was too busy trying to keep a roof while raising 3 kids alone to worry about such nonsense...Just go to school and graduate was her motto...

The 3 of us friends had only one class together in my final year...and that was Typing and Shorthand class...and that's about the only time we were together anymore, as the school year was dwindling along in Jan...and I would be out that May when the class of 1970 graduated, one of the friends had a steady boyfriend now and her parents had him figured for a loser, and tried to convince her to go ahead and graduate and go off to art college in the fall...and my other friend seemed to be very quiet...She took to wearing this long wool poncho and she never passed notes and she just looked sad...

As Jan turned over to April the heat was building in our NON airconditioned high school we had open windows and box fans, to keep us cool but my friend continued to wear the wool poncho and one day SHE Fainted! Feel over and looked dead!  She never came back to school that year...I found out later that my friend had given birth to a baby boy...he had been put up for adoption...and no one every spoke of it again...

I did get hired on the track and  in the Summer I did leave SC for NY to work at Belmont Race Track...I hooked up with the guy I married 4 yrs later, After I moved away I wrote to my friend...she told me that she had gotten pregnant by her boyfriend and they were getting married...She would be able to go to summer shcool and get her credits to graduate, but there would be no college in the fall, and her parents were not speaking to her.  And she told me our other friend had given birth to yet another child who was adopted out...and she did graduate..no one knew who the father of the second child was as she would never say...and another friend who we all knew was living with an older couple who took her in when her dad threw her outta the house when she ended up pregnant at 17, and she got an abortion as she threatened to kill herself, the only way one was legal in those days if the life of the mother was in danger. And a year later she continued to live with the couple until his wife found out he was banging her!! 

Eventually we all ended up back in our home town...Each of us married...so my friend had a son and she never worked she was a stay at home Mom, her husband had a small family house painting business...the other friend eventually married an older man and she had one son that she adored...and she passed away when she was in her late 40's of breast cancer...her son  who was 14 at the time, probably had no idea he has 2 step brothers (if they are still alive) one born in 1970 and  one in 1971...and eventually I had a son when I was 28 and then the  other friend had a second son when her first son was 10 yrs old...

In those days Abortion was Illegal...after it became legal all 3 of us chose to have our kids...But I have to  wonder how would those lives have been different if Abortion had been legal? The predation of young women who have not been properly informed in this country is a symptom...unwanted pregnancies are a symptom of a system, a religious system, a government system, a school system, and families that have failed female children. This a SOCIAL problem and it needs to be fixed at the beginning. 

IT's a ...

ASTELAND...

Talking about the my original blog...it has changed over the years, it began as a one paragraph post mostly with one photo when I lived in NYC...and it was on Yahoo...they closed down then I moved to a couple other blog servers, Multiply, My Space, and maybe one more then I came to Blogger.  My readership has dwindled to only one or two comments a post and views of less than 20...hardly is worth the time and the trouble...I tried Instagram, that is for Influencers, of which I am not...Im just an older female trying to stay in some sort of social loop because my "real" loop has died off and I don't have the emotional energy to rebuild it. I am officially a Hermitress.  I don't like being around people, I get anxious when I am and even family I yearn for my alone time so I can console myself and just be left to allow my thoughts to wader off where they may. 

For most of my life my focus was on my family...I helped each one when in need not just once but many times....they have helped me too...we used to be a very tight knit group. 

I spent the past 13 yrs devoted almost entirely to helping my mom navigate her golden years...then the past 3 of that learning to live without her in my life....I sheared off personal friendships because I had no time to devote to that.  I only had one close friend who was not being honest about herself, she was trying to be one personality for me, and another for the other people in her life which to me was a signal for me to exit...and I did. I released her from that pressure, and released myself too. I cant be whom I am not and can't image someone doing that for my benefit, her way of dealing with the life she was dealt I guess. 

Then my Mom passed away, both sisters left, we stay in touch but I feel so far out of that loop it's like they are blood sisters and I am the adopted sister?  I accept that...it still creates a nagging feeling of pain and hurt. 

So I had this little group of online friends via the blog, just a little tiny support group...and now its down to the occasional  comment...I step on toes, Im political, I have opinions etc...some followers have health issues and they are no longer able to blog or even follow along, others lost interest, and my posts have become like carbon copies of each other so I plan to try a different approach and then let it go...there will be no Phoenix. I am not interested in conforming any longer.  Once it was important.  I guess I have either come into my own, or I have finally cut all ties with my fellow human beings and just said Fuck it. 

I actually enjoy keeping this blog as it is my dumping ground...a place to leave my nuclear waste, my barrels of toxic emotions and feelings, and the layers of complexity all in one place.  Maybe I should re title it the Wasteland...

And now Im going to share a story that has been circling my mind since the roe v wade rebellion. 

THANKS!

ILL THINGS CHANGE?

All the Never Hillary's we can thank you for where we are today...I wanted Bernie, but you don't toss the baby out with the dishwater.  They didn't vote, like little spoiled brats they helped to erase all the hard work MY generation did all the progress we did make. BY turning their backs on us!!  Now not only do WE not have any Progressive Forward movement we are going BACKWARDS...so Thank you to all those Progressives who put us Back 50 yrs by not participating.  Sometimes things come forward in little steps, we must take our first steps, and that is the way life is...we can't jump all the way to the front of the line.  So all those tattooed, nose ringed, binary individuals,  everything goes progressives, YOU SUCK!! You are chicken shit!  Where is your spine??  All those latte soaked
influencers, Gen X, Millennials, Gen Z.   

Get yourself in gear or just shut UP...So tired of hearing them moan and groan about our generation and how things are tougher for them...and yet they did nothing to help.  If you're not part of the solution you are part of the problem. 

You will go down in history as the generation that "Could Have But Didn't!  YOU want to be carried into the future, not walk into your own  future, where are the leaders?  You look to our generation to continue to pave the way for Pete's sake?? We are old, we are the dying generation, so YOU will have to carry the torch like it or not. Stop whining, and get busy.

When it was time to step up they stepped aside, what wusses, spineless...Fire yourself UP...get angry, get things done...it's your future you are gambling away. NOT MINE, I cant have a baby I don't take birth control measures, I got no dog in this fight but I am gonna do what I can to try to stop these Political and Religious Regressionists in their political tracks. Are you just gonna stand there while your rights are whittled away or you gonna get your asses to the polls in Nov and vote these Puritans OUT??

 

Monkey Court

HY IS IT A GOD GIVEN INDIVIDUAL RIGHT TO HAVE A GUN TO PROTECT YOURSELF, ACCORDING TO THE SUPREME COURT, WHICH MEANS USING DEADLY FORCE, BUT A WOMAN CAN'T PROTECT HER OWN BODY IN THE SAME MANNER?
According to the Supreme Poobah court we have, full of self righteous wing nuts, it's an individual's right to be able to protect ones'self at all times with the use of a GUN, that protection means you can murder anyone who threatens your life.  So it's okay to be ready to murder anyone who intrudes on or into your life OUTSIDE your body, but not from within your body?? 

I am not in favor of murder...but I am a Pro Choice believer. I do not believe a fertilized egg is a human, it is stage one.   Even the dang Bible says, "And if thy right eye offend thee, pluck it out, and cast it from thee: for it is profitable for. thee that one of thy members should perish, and. not that thy whole body should be cast into hell."
I don't follow any religion and I don't follow religious doctrine but the people on the right claim to do so..

HYPOCRITES they are. Thomas seems to be in a hurry to get all this right wing crap into the Judgement before his possible Impeachment or before Biden ads more Justices?

Anyways there is two sides to every coin and trust me I know first hand about some of the opposite side of an unwanted pregnancy...See these Justices are preaching female Morality...they think they can dictate to the women in this nation about their sexual life that they be forced into motherhood.  They can not and will not.

 There is no way of knowing but today alone I can almost bet 1000's of women got pregnant and MANY of them are not married, have no job, and have no means to support a child.  Many will be drug addicted, or hookers, some will be teenagers who are caught up in a moment...and some will be women and men who really should not be raising kids...some will be women who were using protection but it  failed...or they will be women trying to use a pregnancy to hold onto a failing relationship...So here is the point..

Women of means who end up with an unwanted pregnancy will go someplace else, another country or maybe another state here in the USA...women of means will be fine...

But the majority of women in this country are not women of means...

So now they will become  Welfare mothers, more Food Stamps, more  Medicaid, the Social Services needs in this country will go up 1000 Fold...crime will increase, more murdered women and more mayhem.  Single mothers will be forced out of their homes...they won't be able to support themselves on $8.50 an hour, provide food, clothing, health care, child care AND Rent so more people in cardboard boxes living on the streets...Children will be legally abandoned at fire stations, police stations and hospitals, and on the doors of these HOLY churches!  As long as the baby is not harmed...Safe Haven Laws say so.

Men will be forced into a financial corner with all the DSS child support claims and many will commit suicide, Many will end up in Jail, many will be so stressed trying to work two jobs they will barely be human anymore, and there is no way out..for the 18 yrs one is required to pay; the amount ranges but just based on minimum wage earners it's $250 monthly. That could vary from state to state, but here in my state that is about the lowest rate.  That is $54,000 dollars and that's not even counting all the added State fees, the re installment fees after suspensions etc...that all comes with that territory.  Your home, your car, can be levied against, your pay check can be garnished, and you tax refunds confiscated if you get behind. 

People will be forced to become grandmothers and grandfathers, many of them will end up having to raise the child who will be abandoned at their home...look at how many are doing that now, well that number is going to increase substantially!!  In my small circle of people I have known at least 6 women who have had to raise grand children. 

The fall out is so huge, all because of some people's ideology that they must control the body of women and lives of men, with THEIR religious doctrine! 

WHY can't the Right just live their own life; do they have to rule everyone's life?

Dictators need not apply...

ATCHING THE J6 HEARINGS...

Will Trump ever just GO the F' Away?  I for one am really tired of his BS and the people who would insanely follow him! WTH? And I would like to know this, I have found no evidence of him DOING any GOOD while he was in Office?  When I interact on social media with his supporters I read stuff such as "he did so much good for this country." OK like what, please list it in order of the accomplishment.  All I saw was him do was: Rolling back environmental protections, building a wall that changed nothing in the long term, he created tariffs that meant ALL our Domestic Good rose in Price, he cut Taxes for the wealthy which means we had less money to do what we need to do, he tried to CUT Obamacare Health Insurance meaning more Americans would go without Insurance and Health costs continued to Soar. He did not strike a deal with Big Pharm as he promised he would, he Misled Americans about the Pandemic...and he LIED soooo many Lies.  HE gutted the Budgets of Federal Cabinets, and Fed Departments...Like the EPA, US Post Office, The FAA, SNAP,TANFF, Social Security, Medicare, Medicaid, and the list goes on and on the cuts he made that hurt the poor, the sick and veterans, and the national debt rose to $22 Trillion. 

He cut back on Public Lands that were to be protected, he allowed the expiration of the Crimes Against Women, he forced in 3 Hard Line Right Wing Supreme Court Justices, He neglected and disgraced our Allies in the World.  He withdrew us from the World Health Organization, he constantly threated to withdraw us form NATO saying the Allies were not pulling their financial weight, He Pulled out of the Iranian Nuclear Deal,  He withdrew from the Paris Climate Accord, he withdrew from the UN Human Rights Council, and the UN Relief and Works Agency, and from UNESCO, Intermediate Range Nuclear Forces Treaty, The Treaty on Open Skies,  and he tried to pull out of many more treaties that was not ratified by congress....  Many of these organizations and treaties are not so easy just to get back in NOT just simply able to say oh by the way we want back in...what I have named above is only a smattering of how he turned his back on our Allies, and Nations depending on US support. 

His conduct was hideous and he was suspected of misusing campaign funds, he put his family and friends in roles they were not qualified to hold, emulsion clauses were probably broken, and he lied lied lied...And he pressed the Q-Non BS as real!

He advocated and aligned and praised White Supremacist's who murdered and maimed innocent people in more than one incident, and he used them to harasses other members of the GOP Party who refused to do his bidding. He sent the Goon Squad in to get them. 

 He tired to glorify himself as a Military Leader, which he was never.  He tried to Tarnish and created Trumped UP lies against his opponent Biden by trying to use the Ukraine President to lie about Biden and he used his Lawyers to Trump up bogus "secret laptop" BS on Biden's son...all in an attempt to discredit his opponent. 

He tried to rewrite States Law to pave a way for him to overturn the election in AZ and GA. HE thought he could change the electors and then let it go to the Supreme Court, which he felt he had it padded well enough to certify in his favor! 

He tried to force his way into office when he lost the bid for re-election...he lied about his numbers, he lied about his actions, and he tried to overthrow our Presidential Election.  He lied to the public and he tried to use a "Militant Militia Group" in an unlawful attack on our Capitol...He tried to illegally replace Electoral College Members in AZ by removing Biden Electors and replace them with Trump electors!! IF he doesn't go to jail for this one, then WTF?

SO that is just a short list of what I witnessed him doing...so I ask again WHAT GOOD DID HE DO?  I need not look far to realize that Sectors of the  GOP have supported  his goon and I would never SUPPORT a GOP candidate not even for School Board, JIC they are actually more aligned with the Neo Nazi Far Right who are the real Supporters of Trump those are not the GOP and they should be running on a 3rd party ticket!! They do not represent what we knew as Republicans. 

It was the...

RONG THING TO DO..

The stretching I mean...MY hip/leg is as bad as ever again.  I can barely walk and its so painful...damn. I really screwed up.  I have my next appt on Thursday...hope I can make it till then...and wouldn't you know we had 2 days of storms and my yard is a disaster zone...branches all over the place. We had 60 mph gusts and every tree was whipping around like a rag doll...these are 100 ft tall pines that could cut my house in half if they fell on it.  SO  scary.  We had no electric for 12 hrs after the wind knocked it out...it was a hot night too my bed was like a swamp...

So I had planned to bird today and clean up the yard tomorrow it's going to be low humidity tomorrow...So off I went fairly early to bird it got HOT 94...I was a hot mess when I decided to head home at noon...and my  Van window made a funny sound then stopped moving! Dang...I had replaced the window regulator in this window in 2017 not that long ago.  SO when I got  home I pulled in the shade and proceeded to take out the inside door panel to have a look...that darn regulator failed!! The wire was all out of place, it had gotten hung on something and it simply was bollixed.  It is sold as a whole unit. The motor, the spool of wire its all rolled up like a weed eater type cog mechanism...you push the button it unwinds and then push again it rolls back up..

Meanwhile I pulled the glass up and put painters tape  around it on both sides to keep it up...and I will shove some rags inside the cavity in case it does slip down...and I ordered another one, I swear it's such a poorly engineered piece of crap.  The one I replaced on the Toyota was ingenious.  I just hope this new one will last longer than 5 yrs! And to add to the stress, Fed Ex is delivering it...omg. I will be swearing bullets till it arrives...and speaking of that....

I was so worn out when I finally came inside to cool off, have something to eat and drink then get a shower I could barely move...by that time  2 pm my pain meds had worn off and I was a complete mess myself...I came out of the shower and spread eagle on my bed for 20 mins just to gain strength to put on clothes!!

The old grey nag is not what she used to be...And I swear every nerve in my body was unhappy I had pain in every inch of me...total misery.  I just don't get it.  And the heat does not help...It was not as humid but it was so intensely hot...humidity helps one to cool off actually...the dry heat is not what I'm used to and since my leg has had me limping for months I have not keep strong....

I really am at the end of my rope.  Guess my regulator just broke. 

 

OILY MESS!

AS READING MY POSTS OF JAN 2021

and a couple of things caught my eye from the news of that time, the Jan 6 attack, the days directly after that and so forth...3 things caught my eye in what I had repeated out of the news....

Number one was how DT said if they Impeached him some people were going to get very angry...that was a direct threat to our government...and it was an implication that he was able to control "some" groups to perform violence on  his behalf.  It was a threat to the GOP leaders to not ratify the Impeachment!

The second thing that caught my eye was Joe Manchin...he asked that the House Delay the Impeachment Vote & Proceedings until more investigation could be done...at the time I agreed, but KNOWING  now what I didn't know then is Joe is a Rep masquerading as a Democrat...I do believe he wanted that cooling off period so Trumps message could sink into those Republican minds, recall even McConnell was ready to Impeach directly after the attack...Lindsey Graham, even the stooge Josh Hawley, denounced the Coup attempt but after that cooling off period as the vote was delayed...they all sided with Trump...So thanks Joe Manchin. 

And the third thing that caught my eye was Trump saying, "What ever the economy does in the coming couple years is my doing, you can thank me".. Not verbatim, but that is what  he said. He said the economic recovery was going to be brilliant, and he took credit for it...so that means this is his Inflation, this is his economic plan that has put us where we are. 

And basically he is right!! It was his Tariffs that began the price hikes of domestic goods, Steel Imports, and his America First idealism that stopped imports.  Even the fuckn Pillow Guy imports his cotton!! 

It was Trumps 2018  dumping the deal with Iran, that allowed waivers to exempt sanctions against Iranian oil,  and allow them to continue to  export oil to the US and Europe. Trump ended the waivers when he opted out of the Iran Nuclear  deal, with the aim of halting Iran exports completely...SO Trump helped to stop the flow of oil from Iran...When he pulled out of the Deal....that created a deficit that no one is talking about!! In Oct of 2020 the US imported 36,000 Barrels of oil a day from Iran..in 2021 1,000 barrels a day...and I can't find any export info for 2022 for Iran.  Canada is the main exporter of  oil to the US. The Pipeline stops did not reduce the amount in fact it rose by 12%.  These are the type facts you find out only when you read various sources and do your own research! 

So Trump stopped the Iran Nuclear deal, it cost the US 35,000 barrels of oil per day which was a huge loss.  Then the GOP blames Biden for the oil prices...and for closing leaky deals on the pipeline which was only going to benefit Canada.  They managed to increase exports by 12%.  Biden has tried to get talks moving with Iran to get back some aspects of the deal but now it seems Iran has gone back to becoming a terror threat so talks have stalled!

Amazing right?

A DARK...

IND,

SO thrilled to find Dark Wind on Bflix, the free streaming service.  I have been a Tony Hillerman fan for years...read all his books, even listened again to Books on Tape from the library, and got DVD

s of the books that became movies on PBS produced by Robert Redford. 

 I was so not happy to learn AMC picked up the series cause I don't have cable.  It was released on June 12th and I've already seen Episodes one and two.  

The roles are a little reversed as Joe Leaphorn is a Navajo cop in the original he is the Special Agent.  I so enjoyed learning all the Navajo mythology and beliefs and culture.  The series is filmed in New Mexico and directed by Chris Eyre, a native American film maker and Director.  

So I have to wait for episode 3 to come out but it's so fun to see those characters rise out of the dust again.