A case of the BLAHs

HAT DAY IS IT?

Seriously that is what I ask myself each morning when I wake up...I try to orient to time.  I think I have lost my zest for caring right now...if the sun shines it's too hot to go outside, if it doesn't shine it's too humid.  Gas is too high to for van rides, and my hip hurts too much to enjoy being cramped up in the van...the more I move the less stiff I get, but I am no shark I cant keep moving...so I ask again. have I lost my zest? 

So to make the day go faster I spend a lot of time just mindless reading online, there is only a couple of bloggers I still read and I just zoom to the end skipping over most of it, and the same with the Youtuber's I was following most I have unsubscribed to...for one reason or another.  I was enjoying this one cross country bike trip these senior ladies were doing then they had some bad roadside experiences so they called it quits on that, and to be honest the music they play is like I'm in a nightclub...its horrible.  I really wanted to say, "do you really have to play any music?"  I'd rather hear the sound of the crunch of the gravel on the ground or the birds as they move along...But instead we get this corny music...so much so it's not fun.  The last one actually had this salsa vibe and I just hit the end button.  

I read a lot of political baloney and that only gets me angry.  Everyone is going thru something I totally get it, one girl who I found via a rare bird alert ended up with cancer...I felt she was foolish to even fight it...honestly.  There is  no cure, the cure kills most in a 5 yr timeframe which is about how long you can survive without treatment...Now she has completely destroyed her quality of life and it really blows for her.  I feel horrible for her.  

My son wanted to go unload the pile of crap we have on the trailer from the fallen tree.  I just didn't feel up to fighting the heat...I don't have to do any of the work, he said Just ride with me, he is not covered on my insurance to drive to the van...So I would drive and he would unload but it's Saturday....THE worst day in the world to even try to get up to the yard debris bins...So I said no lets go on Tuesday...I did not want to go. 

I think I have a case of the  BLAHS!