Disappointing...

ASTED DAY.

I had to spend 2 hrs grocery shopping, and it was wall to wall people.  Not my favorite thing to do, it has to be done but I really feel like it was time wasted.  Later when I got home I started sawing up a tree that feel in the strange wind that came blowing through day before yesterday.  I did'nt get it all sawed the battery died in the saw.  So I was happy to stop there.  The wood is wet due to the rain we had so it will have to dry out before I can use it.  So I brought some dry wood off my covered pile in for the evening fire.

I noticed there's almost as many hired shoppers in the store as there are individuals they have big carts and they take up half the aisle but they do their best.  Those carts are big and cumbersome and it had an upper and lower shelf and each shelf has 4 or 6 hard sided bins on it that they are filling with products to satisfy the orders.

I had to stop for gas, and to pay my water bills.  At least I think that's the last of the spending Im doing this month,  I HOPE. I barely slept and felt bad so far all day long.  I tried to watch Season 1 Episode 1 of Yellowstone,  a series on Peacock.  I signed up for that it's another free streaming service and they have some interesting series, like Law n Order 3 different series, SVU, Criminal Intent, and the Original one.  ALSO the Ancient Aliens,..as I mentioned yesterday.

So I didn't make it through Yellowstone, they killed a horse in the very first scene and then in like the 5th scene they allowed an old Indian man to ride up to a tame herd of Buffalo and kill one,,, That did it for me.  I DO not like Ranchers and this is about a ranching outfit.  My sister recommended it highly,,.but she must have a thicker skin than me. 

Honestly I don't like to see animals working,  People give animals a job. Dogs, Horses, and Cattle seem to be the most used/abused in the movie industry but of course there is all kinds of animals used in films.  I just don't like it,  Especially if its a rodeo, and they rope the calf, pull it down harshly by the neck and then wrestle it down and tie up it's legs.  To me it's abuse and I won't watch it,  Bucking horses, Bulls, Sheep, Westerns are notorious for animal misuse. They force them to fall over, they chase large herds of cattle and they terrify wild horses with 4 wheelers and helicopters.  

Not my thing.  Animals should not be forced into work.  I used to work in the horse racing industry and it took me a few years to really see it for what it was and I quit and talked my husband into quitting also.  He stayed in horse work became a farrier and made the life of horses put into working situations safer for them at least.  I wanted him to quit it altogether but he felt he was too old to start over, and I understood that. Most all his customers had horses for pets or pleasure riding. Some tho were show and racing horses.   

My son and I had a huge disagreement so he won't be joining me for a movie, and Im fine with that.  I just can't understand him, and Im about to give up.  I know people who have been estranged from their children for years.  I never thought I would be one of them...not in a million years.  

Yes 2020 has been a bitch for all of us.  I can't believe Trump supporters actually Believe there was some wild voting scam....I ventured onto a fox news interview on Youtube, and I began to read the comments the right wing nuts left below.  They said things like 
"Jesus will make sure Mr, Trump stays in office,"

"These voting irregularities need to be fully investigated." 

"we all know what the evil Democrats do when they are threatened,"  to that one I replied

"yes we come out and vote in huge numbers and win fair and square."

Those people are really under a vale of lies...and they don't see it. They are being manipulated and used.  Some even said "Just wait till Mr Trump enacts Martial Law...OMG can you believe they want that?  I told one fellow 'They won't ask which party you support before they shoot. you down"

I really don't think there is any help for these people...they will belly ache for 4 yrs and when Trump does NOT follow through with his threat to run in 2024, they will move onto the next big LIE to support.  

Well speaking of belly aching, that's my day it's been a dilly and one I would rather just forget...I did not handle my disappointments well at all.  AND now it's Friday again.