Interrupted by

et weather again...

I was trying to do the final clean up of the van vacuum the floor and dust it out...but it kept sprinkling, then it just plain rained.  So I had to put everything away and go inside...
I was pretty hungry so not a problem.  

I had some vegetable based "Tuna," and I made a tuna salad with the left over elbow macaroni.  Delicious and now Im so full...I went ahead and got my fire going to take the chill out of the room...it feels good. 

Comet, the Antenna sci fi channel, has a Star Trek Movie Marathon going on,..So Im happy as a lark.  The one I'm currently watching is Star Trek IV the Voyage Home,, ITs' so great they had to go back in time to retreive 2 humpback whales and bring them to the 23rd century.  Its fun to see them them walking around on Earth, San Francisco to be exact,  

They need the whales to save the Earth from a dangerous Probe that is vaporizing the Oceans...and it is sending out a sound that is a Humpback Whale's Song. 

Kirk is an Admiral in this one, and Spock is a Captain.  Absolutely love it.

So it's a cozy rainy Sunday and the couch is soft, the room is warm, the dogs are snoozing and the movie is interesting...'

Live Long and Prosper...

If Not for the kindness of strangers...

HERE Would WE BE?

Today I'd be stuck walking home or calling  Uber.  I've never called an Uber so I probably would have to walk...we have no bus system and no taxi's that just drive around looking for riders...
So my car wouldn't start this morning So I jumped it with my Battery pak...it started up and off to town I went, it charged up fully but I decided to go to Walmart and get a new one while in town, Listen to your gut,,,please, I didn't.  
Me thinking out loud: Ok I come to Lowes first so I will stop and get what I came into town for and then I will go to Walmart and do the battery cause my hands are gonna get dirty taking out the old battery and putting the new one in there in the parking lot. 

Went into Lowes bought this thing And then when I came out my van would not start, the battery  I put in back in 2016 right before I left TN for my Canadian trip...and I've been all over the place since then...including 2 trips back to CO and beyond...so I tried to jump it no can do...it would start but immediately die again ....So I gave up.  They don't sell batteries at Lowes, but Walmart was nearby It took me 15 mins just to cross the busy highway a sidewalk is on one side only....yes you guessed it the opposite of the one I was on. There is no cross walk.

So hiked up there thru the big parking lot where a small stip mall is located and then cross another busy street and into the Walmart...got a cart, got the battery and intended to push it back in the shopping cart no way I could carry the battery.  So  I mentioned to the girl who checked me out, I hope I can get back across that street to Lowes...and she said "NO Problem I will take  you.  HOW nice.  I told her she was my angel.  

Between the two of us we got it in and it started right up...So happy and she took my old one back for the core...so I didn't even have to bother with that...I was so grateful.  OMG...lucky me eh?   I promised to pay it forward.  I hope that solves that problem....

MY son's phone had gone dead and he connected it to charge  but did not turn it back to on till he got it off the charge,,,,and sooo he just called me back like 20 mins ago...so I would have been stuck there for 3 hrs If I had waited..NOTE to self...Don't go on any long trips without buying a spare battery to take along...JIC.  I could easily have been in the middle of NO where some forest near a town I know nothing about. 

Now the reason for the big cardboard tube?? It's gonna be a Christmas Gift for Bella, my son's cat.  I promised her a tower for Christmas, then I priced them $80 the cheapest one  found, then I saw this photo..ON WAYFAIR

I want to build it myself....so the big tube is a cement form, it's sturdy rigid cardboard, its 12 inches round and 4 ft long...I have 2x4's left over from Mom's ramp build so I will use that for the uprights and I have a piece of plywood to use for the bottom platform...

I got some sisal rope to make a scratch post and I will go to a cheap variety store for some soft throw rugs to cover the perch's/beds with.   The Tube cost $14...the rope $10...I had to buy some Spray glue...$8 So if the rugs are $12 I will be happy.  It's $124.99 but original price is $179.99 So If can make it for less than $50 I will be happy. It's 42 inches tall..I may make mine taller. 

Im watching a silly zombie movie...called Fido.  I't's about this space dust that causes the dead to rise and become zombies They wear a electronic necklace that makes them docile enough to use as pets and domestics...lol..the people are like Stepford wives, its based in the 50's and now it looks like this one "wife" has her eye on the pet zombie...utoh. She is dancing with him...yuuuuwhoooo. LoL.  And her husband just zapped the zombie with the  necklace..ouch. Then he had the zombie sent to The Zombie Shelter,,,and the man just gave his 11 yr old son a pistol as a gift.  LoL...Now the kid wants to go find the Zombie and bring him home,,,,very strange movie. 

The fire is taking the chill out of the room we had more rain this morning, And I think we are to get one more storms being pushed in by a cold front that give us some lows in the 20'a BRRR.  I had the last of the Thanksgiving left overs...been good to not think about what I will have for dinner. 

So I found something else to be thankful for....Kind Strangers!!

Hanging by a moment

RITING IS THERAPY ...

for me.  That's why I have this daily blog...I wanted to add more to my little Mercury story...about the feeling of Thankful.   In that car I was safe from the brutal wind, the brutal people, and the overload of sound in the city.  As I stated it became my safe haven.  You have no idea how hard getting around in a city like NY is when you first arrive and you don't know squat about anything, and have no one to take you by the hand and show you the ropes. 

So I bought one of those plastic tourist maps and tried to figure out how the street system was set up, and it had the bus and train stops on it too...Saved my life literally.  The parking regulations was another story...got my fair share of tickets most were pure BS and I fought them via "Mail in Traffic  Court"  One time near my Base (an ambulance base) I parked on the sidewalk as had Others...they backed up to the side of the building and over the sidewalk so the fronts of their car was the only thing seen.  My little car was so small I parked right beside them...no problem...

 End of my night shift I had a ticket the only car there with a ticket...and there must have been 10 of them... My ticket said I blocked a cross walk....the crosswalk that includes this sidewalk filled with cars!! NO one could walk there..so I fought it took photos the next day of the cars all parked on the sidewalk...

They did not dismiss my ticket but reduced it...OMG I think I was belligerent for like a week following...I actually wanted to vandalize those cars who didn't get tickets.. 
Instead I called my mom and her advice was----> PAY THE TICKET!

I had a little crash in the little car when on an icy morning after getting off the night shift I slid into a car that was left with the motor running in the street while the guy ran into a bodega to get a paper, I hit ice and glided right into his back end...damaged the front right side of my little car....I eventually had that damage repaired...

So I did...One night I drove home in a blizzard after work...parked and fought a stiff icy wind to get into my apartment.. the next day when I went out to start my car, get it cleared of snow to drive into work, I had to be there at 2 pm....I put on the defrost, while I dug the wheels free of at least 2 ft of snow and ICE I started to see something become visible on my windshield...UNDER the coating of ice and snow a F'kin parking ticket glued to my windshield and unreadable'...I took a photo of it, because I knew it would come back to bite me somehow...and it did.

The car was still licensed to my son and had his SC plates...so when the ticket was not paid in a timely manner another copy was mailed to the address of the registered owner...I got a Phone message from my son.

I GOT A $106 NYC PARKING TICKET in the mail....do you know anything about that??

uuuu yeah maybe....

Can you believe that so  he mailed it to me...it said I blocked a crosswalk???? What crosswalk?? The one buried under 2 foot of snow?  And what kind of cop drives around in a blinding snow strom at 11 pm and gives out parking tickets??? 

Mom's advice ------>PAY IT..
Parking in NYC can be hazardous in many ways...in 2003 when my son graduated college, I flew down for that.  I had a weeks vacation and I used it...but what to do with my little car?  While the drivers door looked locked it never was,  it was broken, my little car was broken into 3 times when I lived there once they broke a back window even tho the car was not locked...I left a damn little cd player where it was visible..

SO 2003...where to park?? So I started looking...I was leaving on a Thursday night...I had to figure out where to park and how to get to the airport from there...I wanted a safe Jewish neighborhood.  

I started looking for Thursday cleaning day Streets near a train....and I found one.  No parking Thursday 2-4 pm...so all I had to do was park there on Thursday after 4 pm and then be back before 2 on the following Thursday...So I went there exactly at 4 when all the cars were still on the other side of the street for cleaning, and found a spot only one block from the train, this one happened to be a elevated train stop...so when I got on the train I looked back at my little car thinking I may never see it again..

The week at home was great, son graduated, we had a party all good stuff...then t4 days later the flight home and the bus ride to the city then the train to the street where I had left my car...I got off stood on the platform and looked THERE IT WAS ...omg no broken windows, wheels still on it, no vandalism...it was dirty and dusty but it was there...that was the most relieved and thankful moment I had experienced in a long time. My very future hung on that moment...and that little car to keep me moving in the city of 9 million people. 

It cranked right up and off to the studio I went. 

                           My little car buried in snow not long after the slide n crash

Thanksgiving is the day

HEN YOU EAT TOO MUCH...

And that's exactly what happened...we both had seconds and then son died on the couch and is snoring.  I never knew Macy's parade to last all day long but it's still on and it's 4  pm..I wanted to take a walk...he died.   I had written all my recipe steps out and that made it easier to keep up with where I was in the process...he did the Green Bean Casserole, and opened up all the cans and did the heat up of the stuff I was nuking like the cranberry and the slices of Turkey I got for him.only got him 2 big thick slices.  

I got a little stressed at the end when it all came together at once which is how I planned it but it was like giving birth to Twins or something...lol

Couldnt even eat the pie,..too full.   My sisters are supposed to call me they are together they didn't go a traditional meal they were doing salmon on the grill...so that's different. 

It poured rain this morning, but it cleared off about 2 so that was good it's warm too...
Movies later and left overs Im sure..And maybe the pie..

Done...

ell I think it's good enough...

...it's hitting most of my wish list of what I could do with what I had to work with...

 This is the front.

Im not in a good mood tonight...I feel very deflated...I was excited about our Thanksgiving meal,  for my son and myself tomorrow and he goes and starts an argument...in a text...I hate texting...so I said if you want to talk come over and lets talk Im not doing the texting thing...and he just didn't answer and didn't come...
I just want to get into my higher headroom van and drive away....I don't think life at this age is supposed to be this  hard. Im tired of being a parent, I just want to be a person again.  Love should not hurt. But I texted him and said Dinner is at 3 be here at 1 to help cook, he replied "ok"...

And this is the back and storage shelf I made on that side...the other side I put up some temporary pockets I want to do them differently when the fabric store gets more of the grey material...

I don't even feel like writing, You know I get disillusioned very easily.  Tomorrow is the day we should give Thanks...there is a lot going on in my life that I don't talk about because it involves other people...but this year all I did was GIVE GIVE GIVE...and some who should be thankful are not.  It makes me want to give up.  I've never been a quitter, but when I do it's a done deal.  

I've been surfing youtube since dinner trying to find something interesting..everybody was boring tonight.  I needed more I think.   Cole the Cornstar doing office work and laundry, Chrome of Vancity Vanlife did  yet another Gear video...IM so like done with that...Forestry Forest making Turkey in a crockpot, even SUV'rving did another van tour...anyways I got no tour only my top to show.  

Im still in a bad mood..I want to be thankful, I want to really feel it...but I feel whipped.  This year has sucked so much and I am trying to find something positive to inject.  I recall the year I "ran away from home" my first Thanksgiving in NYC alone.  I had to work 2-10 on the ambulance.  I was still living in the city it was just post 9/11 and all that horror still fresh in my mind...by this time just making ends meet was my priority.  I didn't have the luxury of  choices I had only one choice...work my ass off or starve and end up on the street. 

So I always walked the 14 blocks to catch the L train on First Ave. There was a diner just across the street....It was Thanksgiving I could get time and a half for working that day so it was a no brainer for me.. I left early and walked up and had a turkey dinner at the diner before heading to work.  I never felt Thankful that day I felt alone and defeated.  I missed my family but I wanted to try and see if my life had meaning other than family...It did and in the end it did not.  

I had tears in my mashed potatoes that day and I should of just walked over and got on the bus and let it take me to Port Authority and got on Greyhound headed south...I should of done that.  I had only been gone 7 months at that time...

After I moved to Brooklyn I needed a car again, I sold mine when I moved to Manhattan in May 2001.  But by Feb of 2002 I moved to Brooklyn in a studio by the Atlantic Ocean.  I lived by the Ocean till I moved back to SC late in 2006.  So my husband had told me that our son who had sold his car, then bought this car he could not afford, lost it back to the bank, my husband said "Im not paying that kind of money for a silly car." and I agreed...what kind of Bank would make a loan to a college kid with no job?  Anyway he told me he found this little car for $800 would I go  halves on it with him and I did...BUT as luck would have it my husbands truck was stolen....SO he had to get another truck for  himself...and then a week later they found his truck....SO he gave that to our son it was a little better than the little $800 Mercury we bought for him. 

So I asked Husband what about the little car?  He said, "if you want it come and get it."

So one night when I finished my shift at 11 PM I took the train and a bus to Port Authority wearing my uniform and with NO luggage, and got on a bus headed to SC.  I rode the bus all night long sleeping on and off mostly off...and I changed buses in Florence, SC took one more bus to my hometown and my Mom picked me up at 1pm.  I had been on the bus for about 14 hrs and was exhausted...she let me wear some of her clothes and I washed my uniform and on Sunday I began the long drive back to NY in the little Mercury.   It overheated 11 miles later.  I called my son he came put water in it told me to let it cool down and add water each time and it'd be fine...
I watched that tempt gage for 680 miles and 13 hrs later I parked on the street by my studio.  I loved that car and it became my Family...That little car saved me....I didn't have to take the train no long walks to and from at midnight and no bus rides no bike riding to the grocery stores on my day off and it was like my chariot. 

When I needed to be close to my family Id go sit in my car...it was Home to me. 
I did a stupid thing and sold it for a bigger better car when I moved back to SC, I sure missed that little car it was my safe place. Today I wanted to sit in my little car and feel something, and be Thankful again. 

                                                The little Mercury, my safe haven.

Thankful moments...

ALKED TO THE MAILBOX THIS AFTERNOON....

and got a wonderful surprise.  A friend sent the sweetest Thanksgiving card.  Time slipped up on me, I know it's in 2 days too late for me to mail out any greetings, so the packette of cards I purchased will go unsent...this year.   I am unraveling because I don't play by the rules of the tribe.  Every single morning I wake up and ask myself "what day is it?"

So the Dr visit...once again I did not give them the numbers they want...oh the numbers...SO I just nipped it and said..."It really doesn't matter because I will not fill or take any pills if you try to give them to me."  I am monitoring my own BP and I am not worried.   I feel that my morning was wasted to appease their tribal rules. I know most people do not take control of their own health care but I do.  This is exactly why I did not want to become a "patient" I hope the medical clinic that is suppose to open in the small town near me opens SOON.  I prefer that.

How refreshing to hear people who will be our new leaders telling the world America is BACK and we welcome the world community.  I can almost tell  how it felt to have the Berlin Wall taken down.  FREEDOM is ringing again. What a horrible 4 yrs we had and x potus has made all of us so unhappy. What an ogre he is.  And now will we spend 4 yrs living with his threats? I hope NO liberal News gives him a spotlight to spoil...let fox lay down with the dog and spread his fleas. 

He got up there today and bragged about the 300 pt stock market...that's JOE BIDEN's effect, that Trump took credit for,,,he took credit for the covid vaccine from Pfizer, and he still says he did not lose the election it was stolen by fraud.... in fact he said the market will CRASH if Biden wins..LOL..he knows nothing he is a joke, the laughing stock of the world in fact.   Im almost giddy to see him GO AWAY.  How does the saying go,,,'don't let the screen door hit you in the ass on the way out." yeah Im giddy totally. 

I got such a late start no van work I did clean up some of the mess I had made in there, it has been a construction zone for like 2 weeks? I have a wonderful fire going tonight the bed of coals is glowing and putting out good heat.  I hope I get to get back at it tomorrow I will be cooking Thursday. My son and I will be pretty lonely just 2 of us, but I think we won't be the only family with some empty seats this year.  

They announced today that Jennings will be interim host on Jeopardy, I have to wonder who will become the Host? We hardly had a chance to mourn the loss of our man Alex.  Last night son and I watched a movie called Pay The Ghost.  WOW great movie for Halloween, wish I had known.  Nicholas Cage, and it was attention grabbing right from beginning to end with a couple of jumping out of  your skin moments too.  We both gave it 5 stars.  

I HOPE to be,,,

RAPPING IT UP SOON...
And I will be super happy to not be working in my van every day,  such a lot of trial and error to find what works, and what looks good.  MY back is hurting, and my knees from all the getting in then jumping out.  I bet I did 50 reps today.  I finished up the back compartment and I still have 2 lights to put in and at least one more storage pocket,,,then I can move onto the doors, and the carpet. 

Tomorrow I have to go to the Dr Office to get that BP recheck, It's a waste of time.  My BP has been fine I will not look at any news before I go I won't even read the New York Times so I won't have anything stress me out.  I had only one day when it was slightly high...but in my defense it was the morning after the NOISE incident as I was recalling it on the phone with my sister...BP Is not my problem STRESS IS.  

I was so tired tonight I didn't even feel up to bringing in my firewood so I don't have a fire tonight.  Tomorrow I will get back on track with that.  

I did see on the evening news that Michigan certified their ballots for Biden/Harris.  What Im worried about now is this,,,Trump planned this whole scenario 4 yrs ago when he said Fraud because Hillary won the popular vote,,and so he planted the seed, and now he will use these next 4 yrs to steer State Legislators to change their voting rules and laws, to make it easier for  a crook like him to challenge the election or to out right rig it. All this talk about Dominion Voting Machines, being made in Venezuela, and by Chavez.??? That's the biggest bucket of muck so far...the only fraud is HIM...he tried to have ballots not counted, tossed out, and challenged.  HE is the corrupt Party candidate.  He is accusing it because  he is DOING IT.

I don't understand why no law is in place to STOP him from doing what he is doing, lying and making stuff up.  One judge in PA called his law suit a Frankenstein Case.  So at least if we didn't have some honest judges out there we'd be screwed! 

Meanwhile he skipped the G-20 virtual summit to go play GOLF ----> again.  I bet he cheats at golf too.  Even despicable Chris Christy said he needs to move on with the transition because his suits are going NO Where.  Because he has no evidence of fraud,  Juliani stood up there waving a fist full of papers, a hundred  affidavits of people claiming to witness some kind of fraud but he refused to release any names...he said those people deserved to have their privacy??? How is that a smoking gun?  He said all that while his hair dye dripped down the side of  his face...FAKE hair fake man. 

OK even if that was true which it's  not...100 is about 100,000 short.

Trump lost and he keeps losing daily...Instead of one loss, the election he now has lost the election and 30 court cases,, he is the Biggest Loser...:o) so he won that title. 

See this is what gets my BP up...so NOW I will sign off and try to let it all roll off my back like a duck...and did I mention my neck is sore too,,,ouch.

Covid is out of control and so are the people hoarding toilet paper.

More of the same..

IND RIVER...the movie tonight...
Going to try it again...I watched a trailer and it does look good, just the opening scene where a guy shoots a coyote..it looked real to me, BUT surely it was not,  Son is supposed to join me. It's a mystery set on the Wind River Indian Reservation in Wyoming.  The reservation 2.2 million acres,  has  5 times the normal crime rate with a history of brutal homicides...this movie is based on such a thing...SO I hope Im not sitting here with my eyes covered the whole time..lol

I like thrillers that have a supernatural tilt...but when it's human cruelty I just don't like that. 
No fire tonight it's milder I plan to put the gas heat on later to take the chill out of the room, but a fire would be too warm I believe

Walmart has one size bigger on the gas  heater I am using it's a non vented and I bought it to use in the van in winter, and it's perfect for that and it heats one room pretty good...When it gets really cold tho it doesn't warm the big sitting room area so I was thinking of buying the larger size one...Of course it would use more propane. I probably can't purchase it till after the New Year got my tax BILLS yesterday omg. Our taxes have risen...my taxes used to be with a Homestead Exemption (for people my age) about $70 NOW it's $197...they built all NEW schools in town and WE are paying for it.  And Mom's  house the taxes really went up since now Im the sole owner, and you can only have a homestead exemption on one house,,the taxes on hers is $266 and it went from $60 to that in one year.   AND here they have barely used the schools.  And we pay this high road maintenance fee.  It's really not fair.  I wish I could move to Lee County.  It's a very poor county but that means they don't bleed their residents with all these taxes.  

More van work and Im almost done, I will be so happy to have it behind me. I finished the front overhead today and I do need some supplies to finish up the rear compartment,  I want to get some interior spray paint. I can get that at an Auto Parts store.  and I want some more of the grey fabric if they have any more,,to make a couple of "pockets" or if they have Grey mesh that would work...to stash stuff in.  AND I accidentally drilled two holes in my fibreglass top so I filled the holes with some clear glue I had, I need to cut that off flush and  paint over it.. 

I actually stashed some stuff into my new bin area it's more of a little cubby ledge.  I will try to  get photos tomorrow...After I finish up the ceiling I have to put in the shop to have brakes and I think a wheel bearing replaced...I had that done back in January but remember the garage I said I don't want to go anymore, I think they put cheap bearings in and they just don't last.  

Then after that I plan to replace the carpet that's on the van floor..it's currently a sea foam green and it's pretty worn in the front the rest of the van is pretty much ok but If I can find a mid grey that's what I want.  
So that's what is going on in my small life...hope yours is more exciting. 

Saturday on Sunday

Hat Day IS IT?

I think Blogger or I don't know...I had a post scheduled to go out at 12 am Saturday morn...it didn't post.  It says it's published and it's also a draft at the same time...ok?? 

Anyway nothing that will change my life or yours...

It's 10 pm...I heard  loud music and people screaming and yelling,  Another red neck party.  The neighbor who is having the party always has it outside even tho it's like 38 degrees outside...they live in a modular home on the corner.  Fine have a party INSIDE your house....so we all don't have to hear it.  That particular one acre used to belong to a very nice AA family...when the dad passed away his house was torn down and that modular home was put there...and then it was put up for sale in foreclosure....I curse the day these people bought it.  This was a very quiet area until they moved here.  I have called the cops on them 7 times now..

I believe it's his son who comes and goes from his life who is the noise maker, last year I heard nothing then when the kid showed up the trouble started again...wish he'd go back to where ever he was last year. 

I drove over and asked them to turn it down,.some woman yelled at me called me a few names, and said they can make noise till 10 pm...OH NO they can't this is not a campground...lol 

The county has a noise ordinance.  So I called the cops will they show up? I don't know I know when I told the dispatcher there was at least 20 cars there he took notice..these type things can get ugly...because they all have guns and they are drinking!  

So she told me her uncle is a deputy...I said, "well maybe he will be the lucky one to get the call."  Omg, like I don't care I just want peace AND quiet.  Most all my neighbors are pretty good the new guy with his tractor who decided to rebuild the road settled down after my son called the police about him as he was "digging without a permit" actually as he had no clue where my water, electric, and phone lines are...and  he was digging at the end of my driveway!  No trouble with him since then,,,

And now the piece of land behind me has been sold to a young fella, but he seems quiet,,,he has not moved onto the land yet.  I did have an issue with him burning a pile of green pine limbs and the ash was falling all over my house and van...when he tossed GAS on the pile.  He was also doing something illegal..it's illegal to bring trash in from another location and burn it unless you are an approved trash disposal....the guy is a FIREMAN...so he should know the regulations.  He brought it from a church about 8 miles away....I saw the trees being cut at the church and I saw a trailer of limbs packed up and I thought they were going to the county dump they had to drive right past it to bring it out here, Thank goodness these ordinances are in place, imagine if they weren't.  

I almost wish to sell out and move.   One of my old neighbors sold after living here 30 yrs...and bought 20 acres close by they moved about 3 years after the people in the modular moved in,,,they were actually closer to them than I am...so I guess they had enough.  Land is still affordable here...so they built a new house right in the middle cause they didn't want any neighbors.

Really in order to not hear of see any neighbors you need 150 acres!  I was in my house with all my windows and doors closed with my tv on and I could hear every word of the music they were playing...That is insane...Anyway, where would I go? My sister who lives in a small town in Colorado, has issues where she lives,,,the TOWN has big events about every 3 months..4th of July, Memorial Day, Christmas, and one other celebration..it's loud, and very disturbing to me.  Jimmy got out of the house and ran away one July 4th when I was out visiting he is so afraid of gunshot or fireworks...

She lives in the town limits I would never live in the town limits it's too crazy these days..

So my fridge had another episode, but it's been making ice the past 2 days so maybe it's hanging in there yet again...Thank goodness,  I have a feeling in January there will be big sales.  So we'll see how it goes.  
I did more of the van ceiling, and so far it's 3/4 done.  I really want to get it finished up cause Im weary of it..it's taking so long.  I think I may need more material to finish it not sure I should know tomorrow It's coming out ok, not as good as I had hoped I have lost my touch, and honestly car interiors was never my speciality....furniture and especially antique furniture was where I excelled with my Upholstery work.  But the objective Im trying to reach of having more head room,  eliminating the heavy squeaky overhead bins is becoming a reality.  

I don't hear the loud music anymore but when I stepped out on the porch to bring in firewood  I can hear lots of "party voices" so I hope when they really get loaded they don't pump up the volume again.  Or they start shooting, if the cops don't come I can say I told you so.....IN summer it's worse when nights are warm and they have an above ground pool,,lots of screaming yelling music..really do not like them period, they have no reguard for their neighbors.

It's my bedtime now so Im letting the fire burn low and Im about ready to turn in.  Svengoolie had a movie I didnt really have an interest in seeing...Abbott and Costello meet Frankenstein. So I watched 48 Hours...a man who was abusing his wife and she shot him.  Although there was a lot of medical proof of past violence...his family says he would never hit her.  I guess it's hard for people to accept that their loved ones are flawed.  

INTER BACKED OFF...again

It's warming up, I still need a fire to feel comfortable,  but it's not nearly as cold as the last few days...It was a beautiful sunny day and the birds were excited and flying all around the yard.  I really love that kind of day.  

The sides of the ceiling redo is so far the most challenging part..I've spent 2 days on that and got no where...There is no place to attach the pieces I want to put up But Im trying to figure it out. Its taking longer than I wanted for sure.

I had left overs for dinner tonight,,, and watched the news on the tv while I ate....So Apple, has been scamming people...imagine that.  They knew the batteries they had in the I-phones were not up to par and when they sent out an update that overwhelmed the battery power many people purchased new phones....
 

And Donald Trump brought the 2 Republican Legislators who were to be part of the canvassing of the Michigan election up to the White House when they returned to Michigan, they wanted to change their Vote to certify the election to Biden,, But the Secretary of State for Michigan said that its too late for them to change their vote but now they are holding a recount of Wayne county,,,,it's completely outlandish.  I really hope A special Council that Biden will ask for not only investigates Trump but all the loyalists who tried to help him steal the election. 

GA finished up their recount and Biden won..AGAIN,,,,,,Trump lying all the way now saying he won Michigan and the election with 74 million votes, untrue,,,

And now the house wants reasons from the GSA who is responsible for overseeing the transition and she will have to give Her reason for NOT doing her job on Monday before the House and Nancy Pelosi.  I hope Nancy rips  her a new you know what.  

Trump believes his death grip on this country is so strong he can Intimidate, and BULLY HIS way to stay in office...IF those Michigan legislators should break away they will most certainly face charges of collusion and if not then I see big trouble breaking out. I really hope the Military escort Disgusting Donnie  out of the White House...It will make many of us feel better.  MY disdain for him is at a high of 100% now...I really hope his Karma is on it's way and gets here soon.

Did you see the cute little Saw-Whet owl who ended up taking a ride in the Rockefeller Christmas Tree? He was tied up in that tree for 3 days, while it rolled down the highway to NYC.   Poor little guy that was his tree and I guess he said you're not taking my tree without me..Hope he gets to go back home or will they just release him nearby? I think they should take him back to the area where that tree was cut in Canada. 

More than 500,000 American's are behind on their mortgages, due to Covid, and now the mortgage debt forgiveness that was in place is expiring...if that many people get foreclosed on...it will affect the economy in  a very negative way..   People are hoarding toilet paper again?? WHY,,,it makes no sense, I have only 3 rolls in my cabinet, Im always the last one to know..

Well not much else from me tonight, I think I will have a slice of Pumpkin Swiss Roll,,,,and get ready to watch the National news and then Jeopardy...I hope they don't give the host job to Ken Jennings, I'd rather have James Holtzhauer,  the second leading money winner in the history of the show.  But I know Jennings is already working for the show as a clue crew member.   

Friday again

HAT'S HAPPENING TODAY?

Not a whole lot for sure!  I made more progress on the van, it is not coming out perfect working alone, its just not easy! Trying to put that large 8 ft piece of headliner up with GLUE on it was hard got a few wrinkles, but Im not gonna beat myself up over that since I only have 2 hands..I didn't take a photo today my camera was inside..but I will take one in the morning when I go back out and I may not be working on it tomorrow I have to run at least one errand if my son drives me I won't use my van..because I have tools laying all over the place...so we'll see. 

I had glue in my hair and it was hard to get out..I got a huge shard of fiberglass stuck in my finger yesterday I thought I got it all out but no, another big piece surfaced out of the wound today, hurts like crazy. But it's coming together still a work in progress.  

In the NY Times today I read about Lindsey Graham contacting the Georgia Secretary of State and basically pressuring him to toss out Legally cast votes!! That crook, I wrote him again to let him know his corruption is not falling on deaf ears...And I really hope this is something that the Attorney General of GA will press charges against him for!  He basically asked the SOS to perform election fraud.   Trump fired his Head of Election Security because he said "this years election was the most secure one every held." WHAT an ASS who will step up and tell Trump to STOP being a fucking jerk, liar, and criminal?? 

ITS damned insane..and Lindsey Graham is Right there with him...and meanwhile Trump has no leg to stand on...And in the state of Michigan they are trying to certify their election and the republicans are trying to stop them...so far the good guys have held off the dark side but how much longer will we dodge the bullet on just how far the corruption has gone, how deep is it...we have the most corrupt one at the very top of the chain but it's trickling down,  The next Republican who says we need to come together I think my answer is NEVER gonna come your way, the middle that place called Far Far Far Away...is a sharp turn to the left.  Because they want an Authoritarian government. 

In case you forgot "Authoritarianism is a form of government characterized by the rejection of political plurality, the use of a strong central power to preserve the political status quo, and reductions in the rule of law, separation of powers, and democratic voting"

Lets Break it down:

1. Trump is leading half the population to hate the other side, therefore "rejecting political Plurality:

     The Democrats are trying to destroy the country is his message

2. Strong central Power, he is firing everyone and putting in power ONLY people who will do his bidding NO Matter if it's illegal and trying to hang onto the office even tho he has been legally voted OUT.
3.  He has overtaken the DOJ with his yes man Barr, and they have put 120 Right Wing Judges in the courts and rammed through 3 Right Wing Supreme Court Justices and the Supreme Court is unbalanced. 

4. They continue to try and run rough shot over the States, threatening them, bullying them, suing them, they try to put the Bible into the schools and Christian doctrine into law.

5. They have been trying to stop the fair and honest election from taking place, and now they are trying to destroy the count in their favor...Their leaders thumb their nose at our normal and expected way of how we elect people to office. 

His regime hits all 5 points....if it quacks like a duck...

Meanwhile in the GA recount, they found some uncounted ballots, increased Trumps lead there by 1,000 but he needs 11,000 AND I think if this fraud they are trying to perpetrate doesn't wake voters up...and put the Senate back to balance we are going down the rabbit hole. GA has the power to do that for us. 

 I totally messed up my blog post yesterday and had it ready to post on the wrong day sorry bout that..so this should of been Thursdays' post but it will be Friday's instead. 

Day by day...Im only looking for the next 5 minutes to be good...and if they are I hope for the next 5...

OW IT'S CHILLY...

The weather guy said this week below normal, next week above normal..you will need coat, scarf, hat gloves and Sun Glasses! All I know is I was cold all day..And my feet still are.  I have a fire going in the fireplace, but it's not exactly warm in here.

My arms are tired...I had some issues with the van ceiling Im trying to change, It was a drop ceiling I could not stand up in...When I finish I will be able to stand in the open area between the bed and the drivers seats...my head may brush the fabric just a wee bit but I've added at least 6 inches to the height.  So the last section over the bed area had no clearance for the pot lights so I tried several things to  make that work...I think right at the end of the day I finally figured it out. Meanwhile holding my arms up for such a long time really made them tired..my shoulders too...so I think a tylenol is in order.  

My son is supposed to come watch a movie with me...If he doesn't cancel on me...I've chosen one call the Gambler, Mark Wahlberg from 2014.  A man borrows money from the wrong people to repay gambling debts...

Have you ever not been paying attention while spraying something from a can?  I did it twice today..DUH...I sprayed myself in the face this morning with vegetable oil spray .

The later when gluing the reflexic on the back of the headliner board....I had it aimed wrong and it sprayed my arm...great.  Anyways thats the way it goes sometimes...your aim is off in life and you just miss your target. 

I want sugar in my pie while

AITING ON THE OTHER SHOE TO DROP...

What's stressing me? Trump's BS, Covid spreading, Family relationships..

And the holidays fast approaching...I have grown to dislike the whole thing Thanksgiving I can deal with pretty good, since I gave up eating meat.  My son said one deli piece of Turkey would make him happy....so I can do that its already cooked and heat n serve. 

We will do a Thanksgiving meal....We spoke of our meal it will be very simple.. As for Christmas, Im not even a Christian.  I just do it to make other people happy...but sometimes even that doesn't work...And it brings me stress and I can't wait every year for it to be over. 

So today I found a sweet potato pie marked down...when I got it home realized the pie is sugar free...wonder how that is gonna taste..I may sprinkle Brown sugar on top of it..I will make a Green bean casserole, some mac n cheese. some of my Mom's recipe stuffing, some 

homemade gravy, cranberry, and son is supposed to make deviled eggs..sounds good to me..

It's only going to be the 2 of us, since we have no family close by and no friends we want to invite for Thanksgiving and this one is the one nobody is going out of their way to invite people in. So my son is going to therapy...again without going into details...I have hopes this will help with some of his issues.  First session was today...he seemed pleased and plans to continue for now. 

Im watching Joe Biden on tv, as he speaks about his plans for the nation...I like everything he has mentioned...he is asking the reporters "does anyone understand why a governor would turn Covid precautions into a political statement?" Some states Governors are acting same as Trump and down playing the risk while their hospitals fill up with covid sick. He is so right..you would never hear  the toad Trump ask an intelligent question such as that...all Trump asked was, "why do you only ask me tough questions?"  Tough job eh? I guess he thought the job would dumb down to fit his area of expertise which is, flim flam man.  

This is going to be a short post...I just don't feel up to sharing much today, Im sure you've had those days...left overs for dinner along with some cherry pie also marked down, but with sugar.  

Rotten Start

AS NOT A GOOD DAY...

I just can't be Pollyanna who pretends life is wonderful...its not always.  Today was a very tough day for me, only matched in awfulness by yesterday...Im trying to go forward.  I can't go into details right now and maybe never as Im dealing with my son's mental health issues.  It has left me afraid and empty of emotions except fear and dread.   

It's so difficult to accept when your kid is not the  kid you thought you raised...I think I was the last one to know my son.  He is very good at hiding his true self.  When he went to college he changed he is not the same person who was so loved by many people...I have witnessed him destroy his future, and had no way to get thru to him.  I don't like it when I learn I've been lied to and it really hurts.  How do  you feel when you find out someone you trust has been lying to you?  Its a huge let down.  Trust is what I base all my relationships on.  So now what?

I hope one day he can get things in his life prioritized so he can move forward to a better place in life.  I am doing what I can to help but I have to say I have grown weary... I feel like as the old saying goes, " Like I been rode hard and put up wet." referring to how people mistreat a beast of burden. 

So I got a little more done on the van... 2 pieces of  the new raised ceiling is in and the third is ready to be put in...it took forever for me to get all the wiring up the duct tape didn't want to hold it to the ceiling...so I would tape and it would slowly fall down...grr  But with a little of this and that tweaking I got it to stay put till I got my masonite board in place. Im screwing it up to the 'ribs' that is part of the strength of the fiberglass top. It doesn't look like much at his point..I put reflexic insulation behind the masonite, and I will be covering it with the headliner material.  I had to cut it into 3 pieces to get it up cause it was too awkward and cumbersome otherwise.  The wires are where the 4 pot lights go...I may have to enlarge the holes I just made a hole big enough to get the wires down but I can enlarge it if I need to push the back of the light up some so it fits flush against the fabric when its on.  Im going to try one with a scrap of material at first..

There is also some low voltage LED lights I plan to reuse.  

While Im typing Im listening to I Like Mike..he has made it to Dayton Ohio, and his hike is going well so far...he went all across the Upper Peninsula, then down the long Michigan mitten, and now he is well into Ohio and he has 3 days to get to Cincinnati, and he will take 5 days off...and then it's onto Kentucky. 

Watched some of Svengoolie last evening, it was a repeat that I saw not long ago...about a Monster that escaped a trench in the ocean when some blasting was done...it was an extinct Dinosaur type thing..he made his way to NYC...too bad! It was good to see old footage of the city.  My son came over and we watched a very strange Tubi movie, it has Jeff Daniels, and it had one of those NON explanatory endings that leave you saying WTH...I don't like that I want everything tied up in nice little bundles...

So Trump is still trying to pull a rabbit thru his nose and I hope he chokes on it...The man is a menace to the Republic and he is trying to undermine Democracy...and so is Lindsey Graham, Mitch McConnell, and 98% of the Republican Anti-American Party.  I consider them all in default of their job the commitment they made to UPHOLD the process of our Justice Department, and our Election Process.  When people say we need to come together Im wondering how in the heck are we gonna do that??? IM  not suddenly going to think its' okay to sling the playbook out the door..NO way.  It is them who has drifted off in lala land, let them swim back to shore or drown. 

Covid is killing   a 1,000 people a day and Trump stands up there and lies saying the vaccine that Pfizer has 90% effective was part of HIS Warp Speed project while the company says NO it was not...the US prepaid for 100 million doses of the vaccine, once it is approved, that does not mean they helped pay for any expansion of any research. read the AP fact check for yourself..

Trump trying once again to force his version of the truth on the world...OMG I've so had enough of him.  And I think many people are now weary of his stupid lies and attempts to manipulate the facts.  This is a dangerous time for us...there's lunatics on both sides  you know! 

Project day...

HISTLE WHILE YOU WORK...

I don't know if I was whistling, but I know I swore a couple times...lol working in a confined space is not so easy.  The van is not like a cube but it's pretty tight when you are handling pieces of plywood...big awkward

 things...Anywho  I got the Front Compartment Pretty much done.  I can't enclose it till I get the main living quarters ceiling done because it over laps the main cabin piece same for the back .

 I only partially took down.  

So I got placed the board I covered with the new material up top.  I  put some pieces of wood along the edges to screw it to...and a piece of wood at the back to hold it strong.  The next piece is the one that goes behind the sun visors...And it's held in place by shoving behind that corner trim and the sun visor hardware holds it up...it's a rigid foam board type material heat bonded into the contour shape...so I spray glued the fabric onto it, and that was the next part to go in..

Then I had to reinstall the overhead light compartment...this used to also house controls for a old analog tv and vcr I removed when I first bought the van..,I also cut and removed all that miles of wiring that went with that Tv/vcr.  I don't need it I used a 10 inch dvd player it has it's own screen and if I want a bigger tv, that DVD player will hook right into it.  I would like some nice blue tooth speakers.  Anyways when I camp I normally just put the DVD player right beside me so I can hear and see it and I do have blue tooth headphones...

                           it reminds me of an Alien...the light compartment installed

The old headliner thing floated up there its hard to explain but it was NOT screwed onto the  frame of the vehicle so it was so noisy and bouncy..I plan to get some rigid foam insulation and put in before I enclose it or even some pink insulation stuff...and I will create some storage bins to go up there too.. I did that before when I took the tv down..but I think I want bigger ones..this time. One thing that bugs me is my sun visor droops..I m not sure if I will try to fix it or just figure out a way to hold it up like with a clip of some kind, or a snap.  Meanwhile now the main living quarter is next...I have to get a Sheet or 2 of Luan...it will go up against the fiberglass top...I have some reflexit insulation and I plan to purchase more...so off to Lowes I go...then the Sides I plan to put in an open stash pocket..more on that later. I may remove that plastic at the back and create one of covered wood because it rattles...I think it would be simple to cut a piece that fits that shape cover it with same fabric and it would be strong and it needs to be insulated in there it's easy to remove it..just  a few screws..I may even be able to add some more bins at the top of it.

We have a good week of sun forecasted so I hope to keep moving on this and get it done. Here is a photo from the day I bought the van, the new thing I just did gives me lots more headroom and allows more light to come in..and the weight of that tv made the old thing sag...it's better now, don't you think?

So Im really busy now getting this done, and then I have to take it in for either a wheel or hub bearing...a never ending story.  And I've decided to rename my van.  So we'll see what I come up with.


Today my BP was 111/79.  
Today was Friday 13th...nothing bad happened!  Saturday is Svengoolie, I hope its a good one I look forward to seeing it..And  Trump continues to be the biggest horses' ass in the WORLD! 

May the Force be With You

HO HAS SEEN THE WIND?  

The answer is no one has seen the wind...we have seen the trees and the grasses sway and we have felt if on our face but we have never seen it. We know it is there although it is invisible..so in reality we don't know what wind is, do we?  We know what wind does, what it feels like, but we really don't know where it comes from or what it's made out of.  An invisible force...is what it is.  

So it makes me wonder what other invisible forces are at work on this planet?  Things we can not see are around us.  If it's invisible like the wind, the only evidence we have is the change that is created...Water is clear but we can see it...we can touch it, it's our life force, yet it's nearly invisible..I think there could be many things at work that we can not see..Gravity we can't see it, but it's very real we feel it, and we have learned in the absence of it, things react differently. The Moon has control of our tides, Gravity keeps us on the ground...Centrifugal force  is real the speed of light is real these are all things that exist and we have evidence of us these forces. Sound is invisible. We know it works in 2 ways...

We create sound with our vocal cords, and then our ears take that sound and transforms it into what we  know as spoken word, or a bang, or swoosh, or a ring...so different things make different sounds...a horse neighs it's not really a sound its a vibration..when we speak, if we are deaf, we can feel our throat and we know vibration is happening...So when I visit mom I always tap on the front of her crypt because maybe that vibration can be felt in the after life.  That is something we won't know the answer to until we are on the other side.

If a tree falls in a forest...?

I have a feeling there are forces we have not identified yet...some of the explained forces, like the Aurora Borealis..we can see it, I can only imagine the Ancients when they saw the Aurora what did they think of it?  We know now it's electrically charged particles coming off the sun....and once it enters our atmosphere it creates the Northern Lights...

It starts at the Sun but is not seen until it reaches Earth 93 million miles away...and the different colors come the various gases in our atmosphere another thing we can NOT see but we know it's there..

The speed of light is 300,000 km per second...so this flare is seen 8 minutes after it leaves the Sun...imagine that 93 million miles in 8 minutes.  If we could ride a beam of light we would soon be exploring our Universe at the snap of our fingers...

Last night the wind visited my yard and I have some limbs to deal with... I didn't hear it...but we know it made a vibration so the deer heard it, the squirrel heard it but I was in Off Position and so I didn't hear it..

I don't know but today after visiting Mom's grave, I started to think about all the things I know are there but I can't see.  Today was the Anniversary of her death so I burned a candle for her..

A Lifetime in Trees

HAT HAPPENED TO FALL?

We can never completely put away our shorts in fall and this one is no exception.  Today the storm Eta is bringing us lots of humidity and moisture, rain...drizzle, thunder, downpour we had it all today.. 

I was trying to get the new ceiling in the van, a new headliner...I was able to glue up some of the pieces...meaning I attached the fabric to the frames for the drivers compartment..NOW I have to wait for the good weather to return because I need to have the doors open and it to be cool to work in the van.  Im not going to video the process...I may take some stills it's just too much to try and edit that so I will put together a video of stills maybe of it...Im up in the air about exactly how it will be installed it's such a puzzle fact finding mission. 

I did some sewing had to piece the U shaped trim piece that will mount over the cabin ceiling when it's installed...it goes behind the sun visors so you have an idea of the area Im talking about.  It came out good so hope to mount it without any glitches.  Also covered the luan piece I made to fit as the new ceiling.

This is a photo my sis sent me, she put this memorial on her table to remember Mom's passing.  The 3 Douglas Fir Cones represent us, her 3 children...and that scarf under it was one of Mom's treasures for years and years. 

Mom, 1924-2019

Last night I watched the live stream of the Hospice Memorial Event...My Mom was remembered, and I saw 4 other people I knew who had passed in 2020..One was my 8th grade Science Teacher I really liked him..and one was my wayward friend's brother.  He was still a young man but he had diabetes and I don't think he tried to manage it very well.  He had an amputation about 6 or 7 years ago..became permanently disabled since his job had been driving a truck for the city.  That was sad to see.  She has lost her mother and a brother now.  Very sad, I attended her Mother's funeral, a few years back. 

It was a very touching memorial service...and My sisters got to watch too since it was live streamed.  Each person who attended in person got a tree to plant in honor of their loved one..My Mom memorialized herself, she planted many trees here on this piece of land we live on and they stand in her honor every single day..

One tree I have threatened to cut down, the Magnolia that sheds huge leaves year round..it makes a mess..but it's there, 50 ft tall or more her friend Bennie Mae Johnson gave her that she brought it to work, Mom brought it home and planted it in the front yard...Bennie Mae is buried at the AME church on Pickett Thomas Rd...and the squirrels have buried many of the seeds so now there's baby magnolias all out in the woods of our place. 

There is her Maple tree.  

Remember her best friend who passed, Nettie, she gave mom that little maple sapling many years ago dug it out of her yard, and now it's a mature Maple.  It puts on a beautiful fall display every year.  And it provided a nice branch for a windchime I made.

 There's all the Cedar trees we planted along the front of her yard, in fact we planted so many we ended up sawing a few down they blocked the view....and the Cyprus down the driveway and in the back yard all big trees now...

Alongside the fence is a huge Camelia bush that is now a tree it's in full bloom currently and the American Dogwood we transplanted from the edge of the woods into her backyard its almost fully grown now and blooms in Spring and feeds birds all fall long with berries. 

There is a Water Oak in the front yard she brought from a rental house where my sister lived in town way back in 1978.  Mom was staying with my sister while we were getting her house ready for her to move into...she transplanted that Oak, its now HUGE 60 ft tall Im sure.  

Out in the field , the old the horse pasture, she planted a Mimosa, her friend Pat had given her that one, the deer kept trying to kill it but now it's growing and doing pretty good...Pat is in a crypt almost directly across from Mom, she passed away several years back.. 

She had a huge White Pine tree it died and we had to cut it down about 3 yrs ago.  She brought that one back from a trip we made to NC to attend a horse race.  My husband was a fence judge for Steeplechase Racing,  she went along with us that time.  She pulled it out of the ground and brought it home in her purse. Pine Beetles got it. 

I know the history of every tree and shrub and flower she planted for the most part, it is part of her legacy and her history here on this old  homestead. 
There is the Rhododendrons we brought back from the Blue Ridge Mountains, her Rose of Sharon, the Pampas Grass, Grandma's White Irises, The Orange spotted Tiger Lily and a fussy Peonie that rarely blooms anymore, the Azaleas, the day Lilies, the Daffodils...I know the history of each one.  I know where she first planted them and then if they didn't do well she would move them.  It's a history I should write down somewhere..a permanent place. 

Her beloved African Violet died just after she did, she lovingly tended  it for half a lifetime.  It knew, that plant shared her bedroom  for 40 or so years. She raised and lowered the blind daily giving it the light it loved.  She got it from my dad's half sister Katie,  along with a succulent that I am now the care taker of.  My Aunt Katie is buried in the family plot in TN.  

So many of the potted plants I have are from cuttings Mom and I shared with each other..she loved plants and nature and she nurtured and raised a forest of trees...

So many little bits of her love of nature still here hopefully standing for years to come..Many of the deeds we do, outlive us for many centuries and get passed down through generations...hopefully the seeds we sow are done in love and are all good ones..

My Mom passed away one year ago today as you read this Nov 12.  If tears were diamonds I would be a wealthy woman, and so would my sisters.  We have many wonderful memories of our Mom she was such a joy...And we Loved her truly.
Forever and beyond Mom...forever and beyond. 

Take it or leave it...

OKE AT 5:30 so Got  Up!

No use fighting it, now I understand why Mom used to get up before dawn and I was always afraid she would fall or something...but she was so quiet I didn't always know she was up unless the faint light of the dining room made it's way into my room...she would always sit there and read her Bible, then she would do a couple of word search puzzles and before she got too feeble to do it she would shake out the dry food into the girls bowls and that would generally wake me up...as it sounds like someone  pouring rocks on tin. 

When the dementia really set in she would try to fed them twice..So I had to ask her to not do any more dog feeding.   But she never really did stop.. .I miss those times.   Tonight at 6 pm I will be, I hope, live streaming the memorial service put on by the county Hospice center.  I just could not go in person...I know I would not be able to hold it together my grief is still so raw and close...hardly a day passes without me being in tears at least once per day and sometimes more...I am allowing my grief to show and come out...but mostly in private.   My Mom was only a Hospice Patient for 3 hrs...she passed right after we changed her admission to Hospice Care.  

So right away the medical office wants to take "control" of my life..I do not want this so I may just call and tell them no don't think so...this is exactly what I want to avoid..

So I got my script, got what I wanted..my BP was high so right away they start with the "concerns" HEY when I go to any DR"s office my BP is high because I don't like it..and I have PTSD from my years of working as a Medic just being in that environment brings back the stress..and I have been very worried about my son.  I can't go into detail because he wants his privacy kept..but I AM totally worried about his mental health. 
So if they hadn't made me sit in the waiting room for one hr I probably would have been fine..so I told her for me that is normal...I am an easily stressed person and it affects my entire body.  This is one reason I gave up the field of EMS, the stress was getting to me.  

SO I may call and tell them no thank you, they made 3 additional appointments for me within the span of 4 weeks...I have not been to a Dr 3 times this year so now suddenly I have to go 3 times in one month??? No they can't force me to go and fine by me if they dismiss me as a patient it wont be the first time!  It will be more like the 5th time'

I may go to my Mom's old Dr he is not pushy he does not insist on anything...I did tell her I would track my BP to make sure it's ok and it is, by the time I got home it was within my  normal range. OR close to it..I already told her I will not take any medicine for stress induced temporary BP spikes.I can easily take a nitro tab and have my BP in the low 100's when I go in for the recheck!! 

I should have thought of that because I knew it would happen it always does..

I got  the headliner fabric for the van project hope it's enough..I got all they had 4 yds...I nearly died to see all that Christmas stuff in Hobby Lobby., and in Walmart.  OMG there was more shelf space for Glittery balls than for bread and canned goods! We sure can't eat that crap. I think my BP went back up when I saw that. In Hobby Lobby they had all these big metal letters, the entire alphabet..they were at least 10 inches tall...and 8 inches wide, I stood there and mentally lined them up to spell Fuck Trump.  But then i figured they had video cameras..lol. 

Then more waiting on the script to get filled.  And everyone talking through a mask..life is hard...then add a Authoritarian Dictator trying to implement a coop by refusing to step down and that will add more stress to your life...I told the NP that no wonder with Trump being the jerk he is I Have NO idea how she voted,,,but her BP was not the one in Question...I know that otherwise healthy people dont have a stroke when their BP is 162/90

NOW if it was 220/100 yes...By the time I got home 143/82 and still going down...

Finding  Your Roots in on TV later tonight I enjoy that show and my sis and I watch and then we discuss the next time we talk...it's so fascinating what is in the past...We knew we had ancestors arrive on Ship Anne in 1624...we know we had Rev War vets, and Frontiersmen ancestors, CSA ancestors, as well as all the Modern era wars, and sis found our war of 1812 vets now...So when these people who have a family member in the military throw up in my face that they support the USA cause they have a family member in the Service I want to say I have 500 years of service in my blood...that's why Im so damned angry with the state of our Union.  It makes me want to punch someone in the virtual snoot. In fact you know those little icons on FB the smiley face, the heart, the angry face, I want a Punch In the NOSE pose..the swinging fist..LOL
POW** take that...

Not that Im special but people are so sure no one else  is as deserving or  entitled than they are...hell there's descendants of Slaves who have more Military Service in their background than some of these "proud Army Mom's" 

Seriously...it's not a vacuum. IN fact my family was already here 60 yrs living in Plymouth and the surrounding area some already dead and buried in local cemeteries when Ben  Franklin's Ancestors immigrated, in 1689 and he was not born till 1705.  My son is actually a first generation American on his Paternal side and a 9th Generation American on My side...

My husband was from Britain.  I have done little in the way of tracing my husbands line, Ancestry makes you pay extra for European access..I know back to his grand parents...and that's it. 

Its always fun to look back in history and make note...Trump is 2nd generation American his family did not fight in any US wars, his grand father fled Germany to get out of the German Army.  So I can't see how he claims to be a Patriot..he is NOT.. MAGA hats he controls who yell Patriots probably are  just like him ...hatred they have that in common and none of his kids or him enlisted..so you tell me? Her called NY City HIS City...the people of NYC despise him. They really do.  Im sure they will be sorry to see him return.  HILLARY was his Senator when I lived there I voted for her.  

So no wonder he was thrilled to win over her...he was SO jealous of her and Bill when they arrived in NY he called them all sort of names, Arkansas Trash, country bumpkins, he really hated them.  So he had a vendetta, now he has one with the entire Democratic Party and all it's members of which I am one.  

My father was a staunch Republican, a very different party back then....his father, my Grand Father was a Sheriff of Bledsoe County back in late 1930's..He was murdered shot to death.  My dad and his brothers had a vendetta for years..it ate at them like  poison. 

Biden 's Ancestors immigrated from Ireland in 1850.  Biden has no War heroes in his American Soil background either...he had Asthma as a teen and never enlisted..was given 1-A for that condition.  But his son served, and so he has that Patriotic branch off the stem. Anyways it matters but was thinking of the many flags my Ancestors carried into battle, and it gives me pause to say I love this Country and that is why it matters to me. 

So it's Tuesday over with pretty much and Im done for the day the rest is just feed the dogs and have dinner then watch the memorial online, a little tv then early to bed!!