Chill in my life...

INTER ATTIRE RECOMMENDED...

So many things all came up at once and it peaked today...I could no longer put off 3 things so BAM, get all done before lunch time.  I was at the door of Mom's old bank at 9:30 this morning, and closed her banking account.  It's a year now so any doctor who didn't send his bill by now must not be planning to send one...
doing that closing was a sad thing for me....more endings. I thought I would burst into tears right there in the chair.  I just wanted to reach out and hold mom's hand I recalled the day we went in to have me added to her account, and this was the finale of that day it was in effect as if that day was marked....to be continued.  And now its done.  

 I was remembering all the way back to 2007 when I came to live with Mom so she could come back to her home.  She had been living with my sister and her husband but she wanted to live in her own home.  I left NY and came to get her and she and I took a trip up through New England, one more adventure for us...she helped me close down my apartment there and pack what little bit of belongs I brought with me, and we came home.  Me back to SC and her back to her home that she loved so much.  

Not much later I found out my mom had no Savings! NOT one dollar.  So I set up a savings account that was connected to  her checking account.  We sat down and went through her budget and we came up with a number of how much she could set aside into her savings account.  We went with the Way 2 Save account at Wachovia, it later became Wells Fargo.  And we put a regular transfer from checking to savings of  $30 a month  and everytime she used her debit card a $1 was transferred into the savings account also.  In no time she had money in savings...She was so proud of that and she could not believe how easy it was to do.  So today I wiped that account out and her checking account too...We spent most of that savings account to pay for her funeral.  Neither of us knew what it was we were saving for...

I recall so well the week she sold her car.  She didn't want to sell it but she got tired of paying Insurance and it just sat in the yard,  We drove it to the store occasionally to keep it moving..but mostly it sat and collected pine needles...So many endings to recall.

Next stop was to find myself a doctor.  Recall me saying the Walmart Medical Clinic had closed that is where I got my yearly blood work and prescript for my thyroid meds...so I found a place that has 3 Nurse Practitioners who wanted some patients so I filled out the paperwork and she told me to call in 48 hrs to make my first appointment..I need to get it done while I have some of my deductible paid,..
One thing that gave me pause was when I came to the line

IN CASE OF EMERGENCY CONTACT:________________________

Wow more tears, I had alway put Mom's name in that blank spot...I almost  put "None"

But I put my sister's name and her 1800 miles away Colorado phone number, no use trying to contact my son, he won't even take my calls so I know he won't take a call from anyone who he doesn't know.  

I felt so alone, I looked around the room to see if other people felt it too. But I don't think they did, each of them had someone with them a caring loved one.  

And my tires needed to be rotated, the place I normally go to I have lost confidence in them...so I went to a different place and he did it right away and the price was right..

I nearly got rear ended, me and the guy in the left lane beside me,  At the stop light I pulled up to stop but was still moving a little and the guy in the left lane was pulling a big trailer...about then I hear someone lay on the horn looked in my side mirror see a guy coming Between US ...OK there is NO LANE there but I turned the nose of my van sharply to the right and made room for this car that zoooms between us and runs the light!!   
I look over at the other driver he is shaking his head and neither of us can figure out wth just happened except he nearly hit us both! 

Mechanic found a roofing nail in one of my tires so he fixed that.  I think I will go to him in the future.   The old place I normally go when I stopped to see if he could do it, he said come back at 2:30 it was then 10:30...I really didn't want to do that he said they don't have a bay open at the moment..went to the other guy he had no bay open but he pulled a guy off a bigger job and the brought some portable jack up things out and the two of them had it ready to go in less than 20 mins! Now that I liked. 

So I cut some wood when I got home now I have a nice fire going it's COLD...I had to pull out my heavy pants, shirt, coat, socks, and gloves!  Even with my fire my feet are cold...We may get our first frost tonight...but until the tropics settle down we will get a warm up by the end of the week...

As I type 3 deer came into my field....they look so dark now with their winter coats growing in, one is a young fellow not too big at all...it's so nice I feel comfort when they are here and they were here this morning when I got up too...it's like they are part of my little world.