Rotten Start

AS NOT A GOOD DAY...

I just can't be Pollyanna who pretends life is wonderful...its not always.  Today was a very tough day for me, only matched in awfulness by yesterday...Im trying to go forward.  I can't go into details right now and maybe never as Im dealing with my son's mental health issues.  It has left me afraid and empty of emotions except fear and dread.   

It's so difficult to accept when your kid is not the  kid you thought you raised...I think I was the last one to know my son.  He is very good at hiding his true self.  When he went to college he changed he is not the same person who was so loved by many people...I have witnessed him destroy his future, and had no way to get thru to him.  I don't like it when I learn I've been lied to and it really hurts.  How do  you feel when you find out someone you trust has been lying to you?  Its a huge let down.  Trust is what I base all my relationships on.  So now what?

I hope one day he can get things in his life prioritized so he can move forward to a better place in life.  I am doing what I can to help but I have to say I have grown weary... I feel like as the old saying goes, " Like I been rode hard and put up wet." referring to how people mistreat a beast of burden. 

So I got a little more done on the van... 2 pieces of  the new raised ceiling is in and the third is ready to be put in...it took forever for me to get all the wiring up the duct tape didn't want to hold it to the ceiling...so I would tape and it would slowly fall down...grr  But with a little of this and that tweaking I got it to stay put till I got my masonite board in place. Im screwing it up to the 'ribs' that is part of the strength of the fiberglass top. It doesn't look like much at his point..I put reflexic insulation behind the masonite, and I will be covering it with the headliner material.  I had to cut it into 3 pieces to get it up cause it was too awkward and cumbersome otherwise.  The wires are where the 4 pot lights go...I may have to enlarge the holes I just made a hole big enough to get the wires down but I can enlarge it if I need to push the back of the light up some so it fits flush against the fabric when its on.  Im going to try one with a scrap of material at first..

There is also some low voltage LED lights I plan to reuse.  

While Im typing Im listening to I Like Mike..he has made it to Dayton Ohio, and his hike is going well so far...he went all across the Upper Peninsula, then down the long Michigan mitten, and now he is well into Ohio and he has 3 days to get to Cincinnati, and he will take 5 days off...and then it's onto Kentucky. 

Watched some of Svengoolie last evening, it was a repeat that I saw not long ago...about a Monster that escaped a trench in the ocean when some blasting was done...it was an extinct Dinosaur type thing..he made his way to NYC...too bad! It was good to see old footage of the city.  My son came over and we watched a very strange Tubi movie, it has Jeff Daniels, and it had one of those NON explanatory endings that leave you saying WTH...I don't like that I want everything tied up in nice little bundles...

So Trump is still trying to pull a rabbit thru his nose and I hope he chokes on it...The man is a menace to the Republic and he is trying to undermine Democracy...and so is Lindsey Graham, Mitch McConnell, and 98% of the Republican Anti-American Party.  I consider them all in default of their job the commitment they made to UPHOLD the process of our Justice Department, and our Election Process.  When people say we need to come together Im wondering how in the heck are we gonna do that??? IM  not suddenly going to think its' okay to sling the playbook out the door..NO way.  It is them who has drifted off in lala land, let them swim back to shore or drown. 

Covid is killing   a 1,000 people a day and Trump stands up there and lies saying the vaccine that Pfizer has 90% effective was part of HIS Warp Speed project while the company says NO it was not...the US prepaid for 100 million doses of the vaccine, once it is approved, that does not mean they helped pay for any expansion of any research. read the AP fact check for yourself..

Trump trying once again to force his version of the truth on the world...OMG I've so had enough of him.  And I think many people are now weary of his stupid lies and attempts to manipulate the facts.  This is a dangerous time for us...there's lunatics on both sides  you know! 

Updates

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Another Friday???

I just couldn't help wondering as I just wrote in My L, A, J blog, if a lizard tongue would swoop out of Pence's mouth and zap that fly off his head...LOL..I was so focused on the fly I have no clue what he was saying...all lies anyways so didnt mean anything I kept hoping he would impress me in a tiny way but he didn't. 

Kamala held it together pretty well I thought...her mouth flew open a couple times when Pence told some whoppers can't blame her on that.  She had answers he had rhetoric. 

The question he asked I was shouting to her but she didnt hear me...(LoL) he answered it himself...he said 
"a sitting president has the right to appoint a Justice of the Supreme Court" so if they need to put on a extra judge it seems well within their right to do so...SO what's the problem?? If he is within  his right to do?? Hey we have old laws on the books it is not in our best interest to NOT revamp our system..the electoral college, the way policing is done, the voting system, the lack of employment protection laws, all of this is due to the run away capitalism in this nation even the POPE pointed it out. 

Okay the debate last night I learned nothing new...now Trump keeps flip flopping as he has done for nearly 4 years, and Pence twisting the facts to suit his narrative...Im just done with GOP period...if they don't revamp that party we will have a single party system and it won't be THEM.  

It's sunny today and I still feel off...I can't quite explain it....just feel off.  I did lose my sense of taste completely, I did a covid survey yesterday...and I answered yes to every question except trouble breathing.  But this morning I am having some shortness of breath upon any exertion which is not normal for me so I went to the Health Dept and got tested...it was easy no wait no cost to me, and they did it right outside they are set up in the parking area...But I wont know for a week...they will email me.  Is it possible, this thing rattles around inside you for eternity?

I also stepped into the voter registration office and verified my card is good and Im on the rolls..and I am, good to go on the 3rd.  Early voting turnout has been very brisk.  
So the guy who killed George Floyd got out on bond....somehow he got his hands on $100,000 dollars and he is now a free man....I  think he may skip he is not going to get his 10% of the million back and I think he should be in fear for his life while he is on the outside.

Speaking of that brings me to this...I don't know if I mentioned it here but I subscribe to a Youtube channel called Adventures With Purpose. They recover cars, and other things that are dumped or accidentally end up in bodies of water, rivers, lakes, ponds, etc.   So I have watched them pull cars out of rivers and find bodies in the cars! So they went on a road trip tour hoping to solve some missing persons cases...and they solved 2 already!! 

Well I can't say solved but found 2 missing persons' remains and now maybe there can  be  solution...

The first case was a 17 yo male who went missing in NC his name is Nicholas Allen and he disappeared in his mother's car about 8 months ago...he was found in the car in the Yadkin River.  His mother had a feeling he was in the river she suspects suicide.  So her sister contacted AWP to come search for her son..,and they found  him and then they contacted the local police and they took over immediately.  AND the cops in that situation would not allow AWP to get the car out of the water it takes them no time at all it took the cops team hours to do it...and he was inside they never even gave mention to AWP finding the car!!  

Then they left and went to Georgia to look for Natalie Jones.  She disappeared on July 4th after a party...she is the mother of 2 sons and her family has been looking for her.  So they contacted AWP to see if they could find her in any of the waterways where her phone last pinged.  So they did an interview with the family it was on their facebook and their Youtube channel.  And so they began to search the waterway for the Pink car she was driving when she disappeared.  

The next day they were getting ready to search the water and they heard over the police scanner that a PINK car was found on Roosterville Rd.  So Police were dispatched to the scene...and AWP got in their RV and headed over there...and the Pink car was found and contained her remains!! The strange thing is that car HAD NOT BEEN THERE prior to that day and she has been missing since 4th of July. So obviously someone who had that car in their possession PUT that car there after AWP began searching for Natalie...the car was found by a bush hogger who was cutting under power lines or something of that nature.  There is one person of interest her x boyfriend...

So AWP is making a difference in people's lives they have solved several missing person cases now...even tho they didn't find Natalie, it was them searching and putting her story out there in the community that forced the hand of SOMEONE who was listening to make a move toward resolution...I will be waiting on follow up videos to add more closure to these stories.