Again...

HAT?????

I signed into my Fed Ex account to track the camera this morning, and it says it ON A TRUCK FOR DELIVERY from FLORENCE omg may as well be on a rocket launcher to the moon..

IM so whacked out...How can this happen...THIS is a particular camera they don't have one they can send to replace it.  These are camera's that have been traded in by people who got upgrades...

I nearly died when I saw it had moved to Florence and yet I never got one single update on my phone about it, Im supposed to get phone updates...If it doesnt arrive today I Have no clue what to do as their Customer Service is a big Farce...you can tell it's people in their homes sitting around in bunny slippers...

9/11 looms in just a few days Im trying to not hear any reports of memorials and not see footage from that day it's burned in my mind and I just want it to fade but that never happens here it is 20 yrs and it may have been yesterday.  Last night I had nightmares, not of the people jumping or the fireball or the buildings falling down but of my old EMS co workers, and guess what my mind aged them the 20 yrs!! Now that I was not prepared for...and they all looked sad.

I want to go visit my Mom today I need a hug but I dare not leave now Im a Fed Ex hostage...