THIS...

HIM OF MINE...

to roll back the clock...if you recall last yr in 2020 I found a new medical place to go get my bloodwork done etc for the low thyroid I have had since 1999.  I was not  happy with that place.  It's located in an old house building converted to a medical clinic and the waiting room is from a 1940s front parlor.  IT's tiny and we are all in masks with our shoulders touching? And here is how they do things, they don't make one appointment, they make 3.  Well I was not impressed at all as the NP (not a DR) keep wanting me to come in for BP checks, I told her I do not like being in a medical setting I have PTSD from my days as a Paramedic and my BP is always UP when Im around even a BP cuff.  She seemed to not believe me?  I guess she never had someone DIE that she was trying to help. 

I have worked hard on that, trying to talk myself off the BP ledge when things upset me, and I have made progress...I lost a few pounds, but I also found a new Medical Clinic to try this one is in the SMALL one stop light town of Bethune, it's about a 20 minute drive for me, but I don't expect to be in a crowded room at all...in fact when I called they said the entire day this Thursday after 9 am was wide open...HIP HIP HOORAY. 

Now I don't know if they will get on the BP wagon, I will try to make sure my BP Is low when I arrive, or at least in normal range...I have a few tricks up my sleeve.  I really liked the way the Walmart clinic did it, they took my blood they gave me the script for the same dose I had been on and if the results of the blood test warranted an increase of decrease of the dose, they called in a new script and called to let me know, and I did not have to return for a "consult" which is another $130! 

But they closed down. Where I went last yr, my one appointment turned into 5 or 6 and finally I just cancelled and said "don't call me I will call you." Now Im down to one month supply of my meds, I am not going to mention the ITCH I have had for 2 months now due to the Hashimoto's I will put on my paperwork I have Hashimoto's I am managing the itch with Benadryl, I am eating way less gluten, which is bad for my thyroid, and Im back to using iodine salt when I need to sprinkle it on my food.  Even if the itchy hives are not from the Hashimoto's HOW are they going to figure out what's causing it. Poke, prod, make another appointment?  That is now how I want to live my life.  

Okay if they see something really wrong in my bloodwork they can let me know what it is...let the blood speak for it's self. 

Im still in a really bad mood and Im trying to not let it get the best of me. 
There is only so much self talk  you can listen to till you scream SHUT UP...