hat makes one man's life worth more or less than anothers?
Been a while since I was in Writtin's. I'm kinda withdrawn right now, working on being a hermit, turning inward more, attempting to figure out the present. Of course the past is easy to analyse and the future is easy to plot, but living in the now is hard! I can do it when Im working no way around that..and when Im hiking or on an adventure its easy. When Im considering something that happened and its not my life but someone just like me, a woman a mother, a child a son, it puts steam in my brain!
Speaking of the Trayvon Martin case and the shocking unjust results. Being a Libra I have to find balance in everything...and although I do NOT know all the details of the case I dont need to know that, to know its WRONG to kill someone! Slice, dice, chop, or shoot, its just damned wrong! I don't need a Bible, a scholar, a judge, friend, or foe to try and convince me otherwise. You take a life you are evil! Period. No matter if the "court" says so or not...makes no difference to me...I say he did a wrong thing and Karma is now ON its way! (The Universal Law, for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction)
You may not agree you may want to weigh the pros and cons of the evidence, the testimony, the eye witnesses, the recordings, the past of the killer, the life of the dead...but you do have to agree with me about this A MAN KILLED A CHILD...and was not punished for that!
WRONG -WRONG -WRONG!
IF Trayvon had wrestled the gun away and shot Zimmerman who was stalking him and no doubt saying something....would the outcome of the trail have been different? Would he have been defending himself against a stalker who had threatened him? I'm almost certain he would have been tried for murder, found guilty, and given the death sentence!
THIS man will be back in the news before its all said and done.
ALLING
My maiden name which I resumed...
Getting divorced has changed my life of course...and I find myself being challenged to figure out the rest. I am a big planner. I make lists, I ponder, and I think about it all. In spite of all that plans get twisted, turned, and do an about face.
Are we ever actually able to stay on course? My whole life has been off course...on my way to my freedom, I found a man and was hitched for many years. So now I'm free again to do whatever I want and IF I can figure that out all will be fine.
Ive had many discussions with people about destiny. I do and dont believe in destiny. I feel each of us has one to fullfill but very few of us are able to do that. Staying on course, on track, is the conduit.
Its almost like on the way to the airport, I stopped at the bus station or something. I had a plan-- all was going according to plan, I made a 3 year budget plan, I knew what I wanted and when I was going to implement all the steps along the way of my "big Plan" to put me where I wanted to be by the yr 2014...yeah thats NEXT YR..
I would work and pay my debts OFF, again! YEAH then take the money I was using to pay said debt off into a fund to buy myself a nice small camp trailer so WHEN 2014 came I'd work half the yr then I'd ride off into the sunset and retire...see all those wonders Ive missed out on.
Then BANG, my x whom I'd been separated from for 13 yrs Filed for divorce! Threatened to sell the marital home and I realized I didnt want that place to be sold. SO I bought it. DUH.,,,now there goes my plan up in smoke. Back into debt, and confusion again. Plan on the back burner, life on hold, why?
Wish I knew the answer. SO meanwhile Im refurbishing the old house with the money I should be saving so I can retire! Damn. Have I lost my way or am I simply taking the scenic route? I know I'm learning how to DO so many things Im learning to trust myself, and Im learning how strong and disciplined I can be.
I hope these are tools I am going to need WHEN I do retire which has probably been extended at least a yr.
Damn!
OULD it be so awful to show us the truth?
WHO Is they you say? Well if watch any TV, thumb through magazine, drive past billboards at all, its them those advertisers. For one thing why are we having to watch ads when we pay for TV now a days? We keep threatening to turn our satellite off, all we get are Law and Order reruns, NCIS reruns, CSI reruns...NOW I do like a few of the series, but now a days they create 6 weeks and then its gone for 10 weeks,,,,can hardly recall what was going on.
BUT the ads where they put the Hook in big letters and the Sinker in print so small you cant read it right at the bottom, WHY? What are they hiding? Is their product or offer so horrible that they keep it hidden hoping you will spend your money BEFORE you see that small print? Is it so untrue they dont reveal, its so dishonest they are ashamed to honestly reveal it? I think its all of the above. Why do we stand for that?
The car ads, $159 a month, WOW what a deal. ANK!
Its a lease, read the small print, $2,650 down at signing and then after about 3 years later you still owe a lot for the car.
The details are in that small print. The truth is there but so small we are not able to see it...on the radio they speak it so fast YOU CANT understand it? WHAT on EARTH? That to me is just plain insulting....Imagine if it were reversed...what if they put the truth Big AS LIFE for us to read and hear.
I for one would like to see a company who is NOT afraid of what they are selling, who are so happy to show you that they PUT the facts RIGHT Up in BIG letters for you to see. How refreshing that would be...to feel that you are not getting screwed when you give up your hard earned money for a product or service. TO really trust that the company, store, or person you are dealing with one who has your best interests at heart and they really DO want to give you a good deal. Imagine that?
We say nothing as the small print continues to be a loophole for us to be taken advantage of. Complacent...tired...fed up...jaded?
Yes to all of the above.
ELL...
I haven't been very attentive to Writtin's. Not that I haven't had anything rattling around in my head I have, its I haven't had anything GOOD to say. IT was a very challenging year for me,, from start to finish....
Some random ideas that have been ping ponging around in my head lately:
So 2012 is gone! That sounds like such a far away time~ when I was a kid back in the 1960's I thought there would be colonies on Mars by now. Didn't you?
What has held us back?
We have held onto old ideas such as gasoline engines, coal burning power stations, and a 9 to 5 lifestyle. We have milked the gas and oil cow till she is nearly dry and now we are MILKING it for all its worth. As a world population we are stagnant as the super rich control the world we live in and we continue to be players in an economy that was created to keep the upper tier rich as the rest of us struggle to make the best of the lemons disguised as "THE AMERICAN DREAM"
I was recently reading a copy of the magazine Prevention. By the time I finished reading it I felt doomed to a life of anguish and unanswered questions. Headlines such as:
FATIGUE, WHAT CAUSES IT
ARE YOU IRON DEFICIENT?
WHY YOU CANT SLEEP
IS THE FOOD YOU EAT MAKING YOU SICK
HOW TO STOP BACK PAIN WITHOUT A PRESCRIPTION
When I read these shock-lines I realized we Americans are a mass of sick people. We are in constant pain both physically, emotionally, and most of all spiritually. The American way of life is what is giving us fatigue, gives us a horrible diet, wont allow us to sleep, and creates a body riddled with all sorts of complaints.
IF we could fix the spiritual problems first that would give us the strength to deal with the emotional, and then the physical would fall into place. WE think we are a sick society now, wait until the kids of today grow up...they are being raised by cell phones and x-boxes. When its their turn to be the Dead Beats in the House and Senate what will be important to them? Will they care about the natural world at all?
They had a "take your kid hunting day" here yesterday and today! SO the only time a kid is encouraged to go into the woods is to kill something? To me that is SICK!
9 to 5 keeps people enslaved. A life is like a flash in time...when compared to the Universe our existence is a nanosecond! We spend our most productive years working to earn money. I was thinking of this; what if instead of retiring at 65 we retired at 50? Reason being...if people moved out of the jobforce at age 50 younger workers would move into these jobs, it would keep the tax foundation strong and steady, a young workforce is more productive, and as workers age they are more prone to disease! AS we enter into that pivotal age we need time to work ON US, a job takes precedence. IF we had 16 hrs a day to work on our own health, we would become healthier people! Less fatigue, less emotional issues, stronger physical bodies, and we could discover who we are spiritually! IF we wait until we are 65 years old we are pretty much at a point of no return!
...By this time workers are so beat down by the work a day life style, they cant/dont make time for exercise, we dont make time to relieve stress, we dont have time to cook and eat right...just going to work and staying on the wheel takes all we have to give. Not everyone is able to tap into our inner Super Man or Wonder Woman. Some can and my hat is off to those people, but I dont want to be like them.
The Medical machine is draining us dry....if we didnt have to work away the best years of our life, we would be healthier! IT would cost US less for workers to retire early! Happy people are healthier!....IF our system included saving for the future...we could retire early! We are not told HOW important it is to save money, we are sold an "investment idea". SAVING money is the key to financial security! Investing is like playing the lotto.
Pay yourself first should be the most important thing we learn in high school! But I dont recall a class called MONEY. The typical education is not preparing us for the REAL world we live in.
What if the classes being taught were like this:
NATURAL WORLD SCIENCE
YOUR SPIRITUAL BODY
YOUR EMOTIONAL HEALTH
YOUR BODY and HEALTH
FINANCIAL DOs and DONTs
FAMILY DYNAMICS
Maybe then we would be prepared to actually take better care of ourselves and be productive and happy at the same time.
SO on we go still rolling a square wheel uphill...all we can do is work on
ourselves and make it better one day at a time.
hen you turn that clock up an hour tonight what do you think about....I get kinda irritated to think I have to change my schedule lose an hour of my Saturday.....and watch my timing in the mornings when getting ready for work..The ONLY good thing about it is, I wont be so hungry when I get off work!! My body will still be on the "old" schedule...for a while. I will probably feel sleepy and grumpy in the mornings, but trying to look on the "bright" side, more birds will be out when I get up..they love to get at the feeders early. I may actually catch a glimpse of a bald eagle flying over the pond that I pass everyday on my drive in, the early Eagle gets the fish right?
Time is something that I wish I could capture and control...imagine that? "If I could put time in a bottle" I think I would make every day Saturday! HA.
I have a dream for my 'golden' yrs...and that makes me think of the other years the ones behind me...and how cool it would have been to have had a plan, a plot to follow to bring my dreams into fruition, I DID but at the time I didnt know that it actually works!! IF ONLY I knew then what I know now...eh? Wouldnt we all love that. I did have a dream, and worked toward it, but I didnt keep my dream in the foreground....little by little I allowed my dreams (life plan) to become second in my life and bit by bit it disappeared as family life steamrolled right over me... not only did I lose touch with my dream I lost touch with who I was, lost feeling for the man I loved, and lost my zeal to keep trying.
I dont blame anyone for the demise of my dreams...but I sure will blame ME if I dont realize the "rest of them". That old saying if I knew then what I know now really comes into play at this point....well I have to take what I know NOW and put it to use. By thinking I had to be all things to all people I made a right mess of things! I know that unfaltering focus is the only way to get to the place one needs to be in life to bring a dream into reality. IM not talking greed or an uncaring heart---but a focus on what you want..first help yourself then you can help others. I didnt, but sure wish I had.
My dream in a nut shell was to have a horse ranch. WE got close...(I married a man who shared the same love of horses as mine) we bought a small place in the country (10 acres)....we worked hard to built it up little by little and at one point we had 4 horses on our little ranch we called Springbrow--
On Saturday mornings we got up early, just after dawn, fed, groomed, and saddled up the horses....after a cup of coffee we set off for at least a two hour trail ride...it was fun, and the climax of our dream. The early morning rise was so great. The sun brightened everything, the birds sang loudly and the scents of a new day was always strong and Earthy as we headed down the driveway and onto the dirt road...then eventually the trails through the woods and fields.
After the ride with the horses taken care of we would cook a hearty breakfast together and eat outside on the spacious screen porch I had built with my own two hands.... later we'd relax the rest of the day, or spend time doing chores around our little ranch, talking about our dreams for the future...
Then a step child moved in with us from his previous marriage, along came a child of our own, school, more responsibility, work, bills, we drifted apart, and the hurricane of family life dragged me along and I lost the focus of my dream...we lost the focus of OUR dream....as I/we lost focus the dream began to fade...one by one the horses disappeared until the last one passed away in 1996. Then the fences grew old, rusted, and sagged, the roof of the barn rotted and fell in, the children left home and we had grown old and fell silent...nothing remained of our original dream we had nothing in common, and we separated after 26 yrs of marriage, and now we are finally divorcing and selling the place....our beloved little ranch, he wants the money, I want the land, but have no money to buy him out and dont wish to sacrifice my future to save a piece of the past....soooooo...
that dream was realized, burned brightly for a while, and then it went dark---my new dream is to retire at least 2 yrs early and travel. I have purchased a van (its kinda old but Im hopefull) and God willing, I hope to travel slowwwwly and discover America up close and personal....I must focus to make every day "Saturday"!!
hen your brain gets in a fog what do you do? Does it scare you, you start to believe its early dementia, its the precursor to a mental breakdown...today my mind is so unfocused I can barely put one foot in front of the other....well honestly what is really going on is MY brain is in overthink...you know how your subconscious mind normally takes over and you dont think about walking, about moving your arms, about seeing with your eyes, about why you opened a book, about what the phone ringing means...because those things are normally taken care of WITHOUT your conscious thought process having to do anything. Ive decided my subconscious is busy with some very important details and so its giving more responsibility to ME for a little while....maybe its plotting my future?
The truth is when we overload out thought processes with all those little inner 'worries' we are bothering our subconscious and stressing it forcing it to take on extra duties and so it cant just go on auto pilot, it has to come out of "hiding" to help our conscious mind take care of things...and then IT needs to shut down and refresh...so I believe thats what's happened!!
So in reality its my Subconscious Mind that is taking a vacation...and on days such as this I have to think about everything...
Me...."why did I open this book?"
My subconscious ......"You were going to look up the information about the research project you are working on."
Me...."Oh yeah, exactly." and so it goes..
Me..."why did I walk into this room?"
My Subconsious..."You are going outside so put your shoes on..."
Me..."oh yeah Im looking for my shoes."
There are really two Me's one who is active and who is subliminally active...She oversees what im doing but she doesnt bother to tell me why cause thats her JOB..but today she took the day off. What is she doing thats so important she has left ME hanging?? NO she is there telling my heart to pump, my lungs to breath what has happened is I AM not in contact with HER. I've allowed the troubles of things beyond my control to invade our well being...and so it is that now she has disconnected in order to get the outer me back into alignment with the inner me.
The fog has not lifted and it's been 2 days now..I have to return to work tomorrow and so I hope she wakes up and comes with me or IM SCREWED!! Without her I dont know if I can drive my car, interact properly in society, remember how to do my job, or go about my normal day.
The "universal secret" is to allow your subconscious to take over the hum drum of daily living so you can unleash your imagination to create the reality you require and desire! I've known this my whole life. As a child I wanted a horse somuch that it was all I thought about...in my mind I had one, he was beautiful, he was so strong and awesome we ran around all the time together, he rode the school bus with me, he went to bed with me, he was WITH me at all times....and even tho I was born into a very poor family that barely had money to buy food to eat, by age 12, I HAD 3 horses!!!! A way was provided, I didnt have to create the means, I just had to create & believe in the DREAM, the Universe created the means...I had to allow it to happen.
This is the mistake we make so many times we try to control everything, even things that are out of our control...(Like the divorce and property settlement Im currently going through) we get on a plane, we imagine ourselves as being the pilot of the plane...we cant allow the pilot who has the education, the training, the know how to take the controls we have to try and do it ourselves...SO maybe now we know why some planes DONT make it to their destinations---someone else on the plane may have been even more nuerotic about that pilots expertise than you or I!!
I may not get everything I believe I WANT, so what? Maybe if I did it would create a vortex of "other stuff" & I will spin myself in a direction that is contrary to what I REALLY (subconsiously) want for myself...which is freedom, mobility, a carefree life, without bonds and strings.
I do believe we are who/what we think we are...if I can get past the expectations of others or what I believe to be those expectations, then I can become who I want to be by using thoughts to create the reality and the universe to create the means...if only I allow it to happen, let go of the controls and allow the Universe to do it for me...SO i need to put myself on autopilot and then the Universe can take me to the reality I have created for myself with my thought process.
Although I have trouble defaulting to this 100% of the time I keep reminding myself its the true path to a contented life filled with peace and love!!
So in comparrison maybe this is why humanity seems lost, we have disconnected from our subconscious self, the underlying current of Mother Earth as we force a unrealistic reality on the entities of the planet that is not beneficial to all this path wont bring us the content and happy natural state of mind and being that we seek and so we are in a fog....when you stop interacting with a false reality you open the door to the invisible integration of you and the universal law or action and reaction.
WHY is it when we give up looking that we find what it is we are looking for? Maybe its simply because we allowed the results we have been seeking to finally come through.
HAT will happen when we cant grow enough food for the worlds population?
Hmmm well I guess I can answer my own question...we will starve to death!! Well what if the food we are growing is lacking in nutrition so much so that we starve while eating ourselves sick? I think its happening already. Where is the taste, the flavor..and IF you dont use chemicals to grow food its almost impossible to do so..OUR climate has become so harsh in all parts of the world...drought, heat, cold, floods, polluted, barren land---And what about the bees? Where are they? I believe its the hybrid "crops" that has killed the bees..the genetically altered plants that bees feed to their young has killed off the bee populations..thanks to Monsanto and their obvious monopoly on seed control.
If you're reading this you may have read back and saw my thoughts on the Corporate Coop of America and how the corporations of this world have changed our food supply into barely edible garbage....and I have not changed my stand on that subject.
I do believe we (the USA) have become a Fascist nation, along with many other Democracies of this world...Look at Greece and what is happening there...how far are we behind that same thing happening here...OUR LIVES revolve around MONEY...we are playing Russian Roulette with our continued existence as a species...
A democracy is when the "majority" rules...well I have to ask if that's so then where are the POOR members of congress? Why are there no truck drivers, school teachers, nurses, and garbage collectors sitting in those chambers in DC? Where are the downtrodden members of the Senate? They all look wealthy to me--they are lawyers, politicians, lobbyists, board members, corporate CEO's and they come in to control the "world of the wealthy, for the wealthy, and by the wealthy." They are trying to run this nation as if it were a business? Excuse me but each one of those "bills" is about humans--People's lives, we are not businesses, we are HUMAN BEINGS--we need food, shelter, and clothes, to survive--we need a peaceful society to live in and we need leaders who have compassion for the poor and the needy...not leaders who think Poor people are just under achievers--for Pete's sake!!
This is why NO tax will ever be lobbied against the toys of the rich, as long as they are in Control....and whilst the poor class become sick and DIE due to improper nutrition, health care, and lack of education!! It almost seems to me the GOP is trying to create a wealthy Reich--The majority of the people in the USA are NOT wealthy. They live in small modest homes, that they DO NOT OWN...they have a modest income THAT COULD BE YANKED AT ANY GIVEN MOMENT if the companies they work for decide to CUT jobs as a way of keeping more of the pie for the top tier
The poor have no voice and NO representation--- the forgotten Majority!!
One half of the worlds population live on less than $2 a day!! YET the 3 riches people in the world have more wealth than 48 of the poorest nations on Earth COMBINED!! The 3 are Bill Gates, Warren Buffet, and Carlos Slim Helu' from Mexico. The richest 2% of the worlds population have control of more half the wealth in the WORLD----and control over governments of the world.
Anyone that tries to rise up out of the ranks of regular people and try to usurp the authority of the rich and controlling rulers in a third world nation is murdered almost immediately...in developing countries they are arrested on trumped up charges and left to rot in prison. In the USA they are fed fast food and die a slow agonizing death of heart disease, diabetes, alcoholism, drug addiction, and cancer...while collecting welfare-and earning minimum wages and trying to raise and educate their children who are NOT getting a decent education yet education is VERY Expensive in this country. We are not getting a decent return on our money..Our tax Dollars are being wasted by the wealthy who are in control while social programs are CUT to the bone and the poor become more poor and are written off as hopeless losers while the wealthy march on to their own drum beat---
its time to end the WELFARE for the RICH-
WHY is big oil receiving subsidies from the Feds-- our tax dollars? HECK the more you make the more tax you get back..cause you are able to spend more I haven't been able to file a schedule A in I dont know how many yrs..IM sure IF I had some money to spend I would be able to claim most of my expenditures as tax write offs---hmmm where are the loop holes for the poor...its more like a pit thats been dug for them and they are being placed in a mass grave.
SO when we cant grow enough food to feed all of us, who do you think is going to be in charge of the trough? Just stuff to consider--
