AGING

HERE  IS the MAGIC?

Since my hip has been giving me misery I have lost a lot of interest in getting up and facing the day.  I can see now why my Mom had so many issues with her life when she found herself in her 80's no longer able to drive or even to live alone after being independent for so many years.  I am not depending on anyone at this time, but I sure am not able to live the way I did just a year ago.  

I still don't know what the problem is with my hip it has gotten some better but it's still painful to go without pain killers...I tried that, could not stand the pain.  On days when I am determined to do some walking it's so stiff the next day it will barely move...I try to stretch but trust me it's too painful to do more than  a couple of stretches...NOW my left elbow is showing symptoms of tennis elbow.  Is it possible I have some immune disorder attacking my joints?  Jeepers...

Never once in my mind thought my body would stop be from living my life the way I want to live it.  I can walk a little bit but hiking, or going on trails is out of the question with my hip/leg the way it is currently...I can not bike at all....and even my gardening chores are difficult....I can't pick it up high enough to get good clearance, the long thigh muscle is soooo sore it may be torn.  I thought rest and taking it easy would solve the problem.  The NP I went to said she agreed that chiropractor may help so Im making an appointment this week, I hope they were on weird hours last week due to the holiday, then both my sons car and mine needed a tire once I saw his blow out the way it did, I got right on getting one on the front of my van where I had a tire with threads shining thru...so that shot the short week to  hell....anymore taking your car to a garage is a long drawn out process....we were to pick up his car Wednesday that didnt happen, so I ordered my tire they never have the right size in stock...and then we came back at 10 am, Thursday to pick up his car and put my tire on we got back home at 2 pm...it took all day!

So Friday I did NOTHING! Still he needs a wheel alignment so tomorrow morning we're back on the road leaving a car etc...and he starts a new job on Tuesday at 8 am that's what we're trying to get his car up to snuff for daily driving to work.  I hope this job is the magic one for him he has been thru so many jobs in the past 8 months..he even did Pizza Delivery which put his car thru hell...so that ended up being more cost than it was worth. 

Anyways back to my new found lack of ability...now I understand what mom went thru but she didn't go thru till she was 80...I hope my hip will heal and I can resume some sort of normal life...my thigh muscle gets so tired easily and it really requires a lot of effort to put one foot n front of the other...and sometimes my knee wants to lock and that causes pain and the feeling that Im about to fall down..

Another issue Im having is food! I always loved to cook and be creative with food even tho Im mostly vegan.  Now a days I just don't care...its like I don't want rice, pasta, veggie, I don't want cook, and once it's cooked I don't enjoy it or even care to eat it! I went back to eating bread, and that's all I do cut a piece of bread  put some topping on it and eat it...I cooked up a whole pot of penne pasta cut up fresh basil, olive oil, cherry tomato and ate one serving, the dogs got the rest...I really don't know what is going on except I just can't be bothered and I don't enjoy anything anymore...

I recall how many times I told my Mom, "just enjoy your senior years and don't worry about what you can't do anymore." 

No wonder she just frowned at me when I said that...now I get it. 

:o(

The funny thing is my sis told me she is going thru similar issues!! She has blood sugar problems, and that means she can't just let her diet go to pot...she has low energy, cant sleep, gets tired, and is bored with her diet...I guess these are all symptoms of aging?

Part of aging in place is accepting what you can't change I guess...and that is the HARD PART.