Was it worth it...

E MAY NEVER...

Find our true calling in life.  Something holds us back or pulls us off our path, or diverts our interest...and we never reach our full potential.  Some of us have less potential than we realize but that is not a reason to give up.  

Our hopes and dreams unfilled is still a life spent.  
A soldier dies on the battlefield I have to wonder at the last moment does he wish for his side to win the war or does  he wish he had never set foot on the soil that his blood has stained?

I wonder about these things, the people who gave up the rest of their life so they could achieve one thing...the bodies laying frozen on Everest, the ones laying in the  chill dark lightless icy depths of the northern oceans...those whose bones lay bleached on the plains under a merciless sun, what was their last thought?

Sometime I lay in bed and I wonder, what will be my last thought?  Will I spend it in regret saying "on no I wish I had of...", or will I defiantly think I lived the good life right up to the end?  These are the questions we will never know the answers to as long as breath...and we don't know about the "other side" if there is one.  

Is a life unlived a wasted one?  Are we born just so we can knit sweaters, bake cakes, and punch a time clock?  Were we born to be the eye witness of the World? Wonder at the crabs running on the beach or the skylark flying free above us, can we take all those wonderful moments anywhere with us? 

If I stood there one more minute and watched my child as he played when he was five,  would it be the last thought I had? 

Does our highlight reel flash in front of us, if it does then what makes it and what is left on the cutting room floor?  All the effort  you put into your job, all the love you put into your family, or all the awe you held inside....What will it be?