And another thing...

ELL THE POST

About Karma, I contemplated not making it public as it was a complete revisit to old baggage that I am supposed to let go of, hopefully regurging it will help me do that I am NOT good at letting bygones be bygones. Actually it was the message on FB from my X step daughter in law that triggered that story resurfacing.  It was after all  a part of my past. Dig up them bones then rebury them over here maybe deeper who knows?

Today my back is out of whack on the right side normally it's the left side the SI joint has given me issues since I had 3 fractures in my back when I was 18 yrs old.  I don't have to do any particular thing to make this happen it just does.  I start to feel some pain and before you know it every move produces more intense pain...I get down in the floor and try to give a good twist to loosen it up and sometimes I get a POP as the bone goes back in the correct location...but sometimes it takes days for that to happen.  Until then I groan with about any movement.

I did walk this morning exercise is actually good for the pain and helps get things back in correct alignment.  It was smoking humid again but I did push through and get it done.  

When we were kids we used to ride stick horses for hours on end, galloping around the yard and at that instant I was really on a horse...in my imagination.  We stomped tin cans on our feet to make horse shoe tracks in the sand and we ran around pretending to be cowboys or Indians. 

We could not  afford REAL stick horses fuzzy heads and a leather fringe of mane, we cut our own out in the woods, it was about "yeh" long  maybe an inch or two around just  a sapling, and once we tied a rope around the upper part and straddled it we had a thundering stallion beneath us.  At night my legs were rubbed raw and my feet had bruises from the tin cans pressing in.  ALL worth it, a  hot soothing soak in a bathtub cured my aches when I was 8 yrs old. 

Wish I could just get in a hot bath and it cure my Six plus decades of aches and pains!! My sis and I spoke of the physical  conditioning as we age.  She is five years older and recently she met another lady her same age only a couple months apart and she saw that she was in better physical conditioning than the other lady same age....but it's the circumstances of life that have to be inserted into that equation before you reach any assumptions.  The other lady had raised 4 children been in 2 marriages, and had a ton of baggage to carry around with her...Im sure she revisits it daily and that works on your mental which affects your desire to do the physical. 

That makes a huge difference...so it's not exactly apples to apples is it?  So when people say "there is enough equality, if you work hard you get ahead," it doesn't always work out that way so many factors, those things spoken of in a past blog post where everything is by chance...well it creates a different outcome.  

So part of my Karma is the way I lived when I was 18 galloping around on Real Live horses and getting thrown on my ass, ending up in the ER and then in the hospital flat on my back, and then the summer I was laid up in bed because a real 1500 lb draft horse jumped on my foot and  I received a crush injury that took three long months to heal and that still hurts today and then the 24 hours of labor to deliver a baby and the mental anguish of watching people leap to their deaths...all this must be in the equation before you can sum it up.

Okay I am doing it again...I know I am the result of my own Karma.