Ongoing Thoughts

ELL...

Ive Had 2 days off at home after completing my brain Radiation and have 2 more hip radiation treatments left so 2 more 3 hr commutes over round trip and I will be glad that Part is over first recheck in Oct of the leg and 3 months for MRI.

My Sister was able to beef up the dog ramp so its now strong enough for me to use...so getting in and out if I recover can happen..

Im not sure how the chemo will affect me that starts after Labor day.

This whole thing has been a shock to me its kind of Im having an out of body experience to be honest...but I will chronicle as best i can JIC I do survive,

week 3 Post release

EDNESDAY

Today is my first Oncology consult I will be doing Chemo in my own town no 3 hr daily ride to Lexington Life will be better I can have more down time    the Team in Lex is coordinating the treatment based on lab reports of bio markers so it could be IV, Pill and/or Immunotherapy. I have to make 5 more trips there this week and 2 days next week   then begin chemo Sept 6,

My sis is taking amazing care of me I would probably have passed if not for her help,

I did have a nightmare of my X last night I plan to smudge my house of any bad omens,

At this point this is just documenting my journey into the unknown.

Life will be better or not but trying this one shot is the only choice I have..I dont know beyond.

On Going

ELL...

Yesterday was long day radiation at 4 and they took me back late,,,We finally got home @ 6 pm we got Chinese take out and I was asleep before 8 pm exhausted...I have my first surgical post opt today and then followed by another radiation txt which is 40 mins on the table..

I will begin Chemo in my own town Sept 6..my life is all about this disease now which is what I had never wanted but am left no choice..

Simple things bring me hope..

Walking Dead?

HAT HAPPENS NOW?

So guess who has stage 4 Metz non small cell Squamish carcinoma cancer?

I do!  found out 12 days ago after i had a seizure in my home on was Saturday the 8th and called 911 when I finally came around and  transported to my local hospital they did a cat scan and told me I had brain cancer and swelling.  They  transferred me to Lexington Med Center in Columbia. SC and I was admitted to  neurology surgical floor....and an MRI slowed I have Lung CA that has metz to Brain. Lymph. and my right femur...so all along my leg has a tumor that ate the bone away and this is why I cant walk...

So they put in a 24" long rod with 3 big screws so I can now walk a little.  I began Radiation  to my brain and hip 10 treatments did 5 already after 9 days I asked to be released my sis is here helping me and driving me to the remaining appts.  Then the plan is chemo in my town a...No idea how I will progress as its a crap shoot..

Totally did not see this coming...

This week...

HAT THE HELL?

Metaverse...is creating a schizophrenics' reality and doing it to kids and anyone who is stupid enough to play those games...IT is def a hazard to mental health.  Its LSD. Ever wake up from a really bad dream that has lasting effects...I can see many lawsuits on the way...and many more unstable individuals being preyed upon by a huge untethered corporation.  It should never have been created. 

People are subjected to sexual advances, violent behavior and anti social behavior...ANY Parent who buys this one better watch out. 

Im having such a hard time walking. My shoulders, arms, and hands are sore and achy from using them to take the weight off my hip which hurts with each step I take. I have been using a sort of homemade walker...the walking cane was not working for me, and I nearly fell a couple of times... I ordered one of those rolling things like my mom had, I will be able to roll myself some of the time and save wear and tear on my upper body.  Its still 2 weeks till my appointment with the orthro. I was happy it was shipped with UPS...not Fed Ex...its supposed to be here in 8 days I hope it arrives sooner..

Alex Jones guilty of lying and saying Sandy Hook was a prank and not real...he was ordered to pay $4.1 million, and there will be more punitive damages. Kansas said NO to outlawing abortion, and the DOJ is pushing forward with investigations about Jan 6.  I think we may start to see some justice for some of this nutty crap we have had to endure.  

My son hit a deer...his car is messed up! 

Educators

AY BACK IN MIDDLE SCHOOL 

Or Jr High as we called it...I had a science teacher named Mr Melton.  He was an older man with snow white hair and his hands shook and he seemed to always be anxious.  He missed a lot of classes and so we had a lot of subs.  This only added to the problem of him not getting the respect he needed.   I had very little interaction in school with students or teachers.  I was a quiet student who rarely asked questions.  I was a good enough student until I got to high school. 

Mr Melton's classroom was on the 3rd floor or the top floor of the building...and it had big huge windows that we kept open as I think I have mentioned we did not have air conditioning...

One day when he could not get control of the class he walked to the  window and sat on the ledge with the legs dangling outside and threatened to jump... One of the older boys ran and got a teacher in
the next room, he went to Mr Melton and was holding his hand while talking to him and another teacher told us to exit the room.  

Poor Mr. Melton he had  a mental breakdown right there in class...we never saw  him again...and Ted Cruz would have teachers toting guns and facing down domestic terrorists.... can you imagine Mr Melton being that man?  He probably would have opened fire on  us all...

Teachers have a hard job!