Good Intentions or Self Destruction

hen you and your life clash what to do?
I wrote on Facebook, my life is a paradox.  It is so true but what is really going on is my life INSIDE my head is not whats going on outside my head! 
It's not just me...most everyone I know and read about has this struggle going on, the who you want to be  up against who you in reality are or are becoming or where you are headed..

Take me for instance I want complete freedom, yet I don't have it so many others depend on me, I feel chained in place.  My do-good-i-ness has almost absorbed me, Im now a solution...all mixed up.  While planning one thing it creates a completely new path NOT on line with the original plan...and sometimes not even leading in that direction...so is it the plan that's flawed or my problem solving that has driven me to the impasse...the paradox?

The path to freedom is paved with good intentions I hope!