Three Days in Three Ways

HEN it comes will you believe?

I get antsy!  Meanwhile summer rushes toward fall! Imagine that.  I had high hopes of having my project house finished and rented by fall and winter yet it sits with walls missing, and all the projects still undone.  It's like a long pause is in progress....a pause in my life, in my living, but no pause has happened in time and in the length of my time on the Earth.... 

"Sigh" oh well.  I have learned one thing..you cant do what you cant do, yet! So I wait for healing, help, and who knows what is coming my way.  I've been watching a DVD that I was led to from the Other Side! Do you believe in metaphysical energy?

I had a dear friend who lived in Washington State.  We knew each other via an old blog pool...I was living in NYC when I discovered him...so its been along time ago...I had hoped to be able to meet Richard but it never happened.  I had planned a trip to MT signed up for a Park Passport in Time project working  on old Dude Ranch Cabins near Yellowstone Park.  I had applied & been accepted to the program and was excited to go.  THEN the economy fell apart, I lost my then job at the hospital and gas went through the roof, I had to cancel my trip..

Richard had planned to come from WA to MT down with his teardrop camper and spend a couple days exploring I was kinda afraid to meet him...to be honest--I mean who knows exactly how someone is just from online discussions? We loved so many of the same things and he seemed completely genuine!  

Then a couple years passed and Richard and I kept in touch even when the blog pool we had been a part of fell through!! We kept in touch via Facebook, I sent him books he sent me videos, of special stuff...we became pen pals as well as e-pals.  Richard was a good 6+ yrs older than me, so he was already retired..Next yr I will retire and even tho I am now unable to work to due to a disability I will be retiring next yr. I am not working but that only means I have no income...I hope once I do have income again I can travel to his old stomps and see for myself! 

See Richard contacted me via email and told me he was sending me a great book by Louise Hay...he said it had opened his eyes to so many of the issues he had..although I don't really think Richard had issues.  He was so calm and yet he was not a hermit, he loved being around people but he never wanted to be the center of attention.  He quietly went about his life with his dog Star.  I was always excited to know what he and Star were up to and he shared his life with me through email and messages on Facebook, and the occasional letter via US mail. 

I want so much to be traveling on the road, it was something we BOTH wanted...yet he spoke of family responsibility and I had plenty of that myself...I had plans to go see Richard...so in 2009 I headed for AZ to see a friend and I mentioned it to Richard that we should meet...but he was on a trip with his bike club friends into Idaho...so it wasn't happening that yr...Time passed, I felt our friendship had mellowed to the point that we were no longer afraid of each other but we grew comfortable & drew apart a bit...like a comfortable pair of old shoes that you pull out when you feel you need a hug--- that was us..

Then out of the blue Richard emailed me he was so excited about this book called You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hay.  

"I'm going to send you a copy so be looking for a package from me!" 

Awesome!! I was planning another trip to the west that spring...2011 and I was determined to ask if he wanted to meet in Wyo. or somewhere in between CO & WA just needed Winter to get out of the way so I could make the cross country trip...

The book never arrived...I thought oh well I guess he forgot.  Then he posted on Facebook he was going to his grandson's baseball game...and I thought 'ohhh he is busy with family and he will mail the book when he gets un-busy." 

No book came...then it was a few days later a message popped up from Richard on Facebook...

only it was not Richard it was his son...

"I wanted to let all of my dad's Facebook friends know my dad passed away on Feb 15, it was a sudden thing and we are all in shock." 

OMG NO!!! How can this be...my dear friend gone from this Earth? NO it's a really awful joke...but it wasn't a joke..as the days unraveled more of his local friends came to leave their condolences to his family on his Facebook page.  I did get to email his sister...she told me Richard had died in his bed after the ball game! HE had acute pancreatitis, and he bleed to death in his sleep! No one knows if he felt sick he was MIA for 3 days before they found him. 

 OH Horrid--I didn't even want to know anymore.  BUT then I realized a blessing had been bestowed on Richard he died the way we all want to die! Asleep, no long illness, without pain or knowledge of the impending event.  How lucky!! He did make at least one trip with his brand new teardrop trailer!! So he was cremated, his house sold, his dog Star went to live with a friend and even she was put to sleep last yr...I don't know what happened to his truck and teardrop or his new Harley Davidson that he was so in love with...or the land he had out in the country....he loved it there.

So last week at the library I went to get a few DVD's to watch.  I picked up one and for some reason it seemed familiar to me..I brought it home and when I picked up the box it came rushing back...Louise Hay! You can Heal Your life!
Sign number one.  It was a great message, I had listened to the Secret and it has the same premise...you are what you think you are! So I think Richard is trying to tell me I'm worthy--as lately I've been thinking I am not.

I cried literally for weeks after Richards death I did go out west in May of 2011...and I had him in my thoughts the entire time...

Then the second sign..

Richard had some really great hiking friends.  He enjoyed many times hiking to the Dungeness LightHouse ...exactly one day after seeing the Louse Hay DVD I opened up my blog reader and there was a post from someone-- I read about her hike to Dungeness Lighthouse! Richard's favorite hike!  I recognized the scenery from all the photos of Richard's I had admired! He knew I liked lighthouses and I told him I really wanted to see it...we talked of taking a long car trip over into Oregon..and beyond....I felt Richard was saying don't forget this is on your bucket list!! Get Busy---Ask, Believe, Receive.

The Third Sign.

The next day another blog friend's blog posted photos and she was visiting Port Orchard Richard's home town!  She was taking the ferry to Bremerton where his Bike club was located, the same ferry I'm sure he rode when he made the trip to the monthly meetings! Finally I got to see it!  I just felt he was trying to send me a message from the other side...

I think he is  saying "don't give up on yourself...keep your dream alive, if you don't it may die before you get to meet it face to face."

3 days and 3 signs, I waited 3 days for the news of the book being mailed, the stone was rolled away 3 days later----and he was gone.